嘿，一，二，三。 Hey, one, two, three.
現在，紅色的索羅杯是♪最好的容器 ♪ Now, red Solo cup is the best receptacle ♪
♬在燒烤、車尾門、集市和節日裡♬ ♪ For barbecues, tailgates, fairs and festivals ♪
還有你，先生，你沒有一對睪丸 ♪ And you, sir, do not have a pair of testicles ♪
♪如果你更喜歡用玻璃杯喝水，喔♪ ♪ If you prefer drinking from glass, whoo ♪
♪紅色Solo杯♪-♪嗯哼♪ - ♪ Red Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Uh-huh ♪
♪我給你加油♪ ♪ I fill you up ♪
♬我們開個派對吧 ♪ Let's have a party ♪
♪我愛你，紅色Solo杯♪ ♪ I love you, red Solo cup ♪
♪我把你舉起來♪ ♪ I lift you up ♪
♬去派對，♬去派對 ♪ Proceed to party, proceed to party ♪
♬我真喜歡你這麼容易堆疊♬ ♪ Now, I really love how you're easy to stack ♪
♪但是我真的很討厭你這麼容易被破解♪ ♪ But I really hate how you're easy to crack ♪
♪因為當啤酒從我的後背流下來時♪ ♪ 'Cause when beer runs down the front of my back ♪
我的朋友們，這是很噁心的 ♪ Well, that, my friends, is quite yucky ♪
但我不得不承認，女人都被♬迷倒了 ♪ But I have to admit that the ladies get smitten ♪
♬欣賞♬多麼尖銳 ♪ Admiring how sharply ♪
♬我的名字是♬ ♪ My first name is written ♪
♬我用記號筆打你的時候 ♪ On you with a Sharpie when I get to hitting ♪
就靠它們來幫我走好運 ♪ On them to help me get lucky ♪
♬紅色獨奏杯♬ ♪ Red Solo cup ♪
♪我給你加油♪ ♪ I fill you up ♪
♬我們開個派對吧 ♪ Let's have a party ♪
♬去派對♬ ♪ Proceed to party ♪
-♬獨奏♬-♬呸，哦，嘟♬ - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Bah, oh, doo ♪
-♬Solo cup♬-♬哦，哪哪♬ - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Oh, bo, doo ♪
-♬獨奏♬-♬啊，哦，♬ - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Ah, oh, doo ♪
-♬Solo cup♬-♬啊，哦，嘟嘟，噠，噠 - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Ah, ooh, doodle, da, doo ♪
-♬Solo cup♬-♬嗯哼，嗯♬ - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Uh-huh, mm ♪
-♬獨奏♬-♬德，達，達 - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ De, dum, dum ♪
-♬Solo cup♬-♬噢，de, da, bah。♪ - ♪ Solo cup ♪ - ♪ Ooh, de, da, bah. ♪
這個房間的潛力是驚人的。 The potential in this room is astounding.
我喜歡這種潛力。 I love the potential.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
這是一個充滿無限可能的世界。 It's a world of infinite possibilities.
——無限。——倍。 - Infinite. - Hundred percent.
這麼晚了，我該在"嘿"後面加多少個"Y"啊? How many "Y"s do I put in "Hey" at this time of night?
-凌晨2點前嗎?-是的。 - Is it before 2:00 a.m.? - Yeah.
-兩個Y -好的 - Two "Y" s. - Okay.
-三是渴了。——口渴。 - Three is thirsty. - Thirsty.
其中一個很簡短 And one is curt.
你知道我在想什麼嗎? You know what I was thinking about?
曲奇餅變得非常受歡迎。 Cookie dough became so popular.
因為它還沒有完成。它仍然可以是任何東西。 It's 'cause it's not finished. It could still be anything.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
用餅乾麵團做餅乾只是個建議。 Making cookies out of cookie dough is just a suggestion.
——倍。-他們是這麼說的-你可以用它——正確的。 - Hundred percent. - That's what they say - you could do with it. - Right.
同樣的事情…比如和一個人約會一個多月。 And the same thing... Like dating someone for more than a month.
這只是一個服務建議。 It's just a serving suggestion.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
「卡拉問號。」也就是說我不記得在哪裡見過她了。——好的。 "Kara question mark." That means I don't remember - where I met her. - Okay.
但它是一個帶感嘆號的問號，這意味著我應該想要跟進。 But it's a question mark with an exclamation point, which means I should want to follow up.
讓我們先看看有什麼選擇。-是的。 -Let's see what the options are first though. -Yes.
正是如此。這就是我們生活的世界。 Exactly that. That's the world that we're living in.
你可以看到任何選項。 You can just see what the options are for anything.
像旅行。 Like with travel.
你不能只挑你看到的第一個航班。 You're not gonna just pick the first flight you see.
你想看所有的航班。 You want to see all the flights.
-這是好事。-是的。 - That's a good thing. - Yeah.
這樣你就能坐上最好的飛機。 You get the best flight that way.
你為什麼不通過觀察所有潛在的人來找到最好的人呢? Why wouldn't you get the best person by looking at all the potential people?
你怎麼能指望找到一個能滿足你所有需求的人呢? And how could you even expect to find one person who could fulfill all of your needs?
找到最支持你的人更容易。 It's easier just to find the most supportive person here.
-這裡最有趣的人。——正確的。 - The funniest person here. - Right.
-最棒的性愛。——正確的。 - The best sex here. - Right.
這是最好的建議。 The best advice here.
第二爽的性愛。 The second-best sex here.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
我從來不想知道別人的父母以什麼為生。 I don't ever want to go past knowing what someone's parents do for a living.
如果我知道某人的父母是做什麼的…——正確的。正確的。-我耽擱太久了。 If I know what someone's parents do for a living... - Right. Right. - I've hung too long.
或者,像兄弟姐妹。比如，為什麼有人想知道你的兄弟姐妹?尤其是這麼早。 Or, like, siblings. Like, why does anyone want to know about your siblings? Especially so early.
-是的。-「你有幾個兄弟姐妹?」 -Yeah. -"How many siblings do you have?"
有沒有改變過你是否想和別人約會? Has that ever changed whether you want to date somebody?
就像"我有兩個姐妹和一個哥哥" It's like, "I have two sisters and a brother."
——哇。等一等。-我要走了 - Whoa. Hold on. - Well, I'm out of here.
-我要走了-你知道我剛說什麼嗎? - I'm out of here. - You know what I just say?
我只和三個孩子中的老大約會。 I only date only children or the oldest of three.
他們說，「行使你的選擇權。」 They say, "Exercise your options."
就像肌肉一樣。 It's like a muscle.
-選項就像肌肉。-是的。 - Options are like a muscle. - Yeah.
有些人虛弱、萎縮，他們不明白——如何行使他們的選擇權。-是的。 Some people are weak and atrophied, and they don't understand - how to exercise their options. - Yeah.
我的選擇是強壯的，強壯的和浮誇的。 My options are burly and strong and turgid.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
人們說像我們這樣的人害怕承諾。 People say guys like us are afraid of commitment.
不。我們害怕承諾一些我們無法逃避的事情。 No. We're afraid of commitment to something we can't get out of.
沒有什麼是害怕承諾的。 There's no such thing as fear of commitment.
害怕承諾就害怕後悔。 Fear of commitment is fear of regret.
百分百。或者害怕親密。 Hundred percent. Or fear of intimacy.
拜託，我跟每個人都很親密。 Please, I'm intimate with everybody.
你有沒有想過，如果你真的在某人身上找到了更深層次的東西，那是否會更有意義? Do you ever wonder, if you did find something deeper with somebody, if that would somehow be more meaningful?
有時我做。 I do sometimes.
就像現在，我隨便跟六七個不同的女人約會。 Like right now, I'm casually dating, like, six or seven different women.
但我內心深處很想知道，和兩三個人認真約會會是什麼感覺。 But I do wonder, deep down, what it would be like to seriously date two or three.
即使我不瞭解你，我也比任何人都更瞭解你。 Even when I don't understand you, I understand you better than I understand anybody.
——倍。-我喜歡我們一起出去玩。 - Hundred percent. - I love when we hang out.
如果有人在錄這段視頻，我的播客應該是這樣的。 This is like, if someone were recording this, that's what my podcast should be.
我的身下現在應該有一個低音提琴在演奏。 There should be, like, the sound of a stand-up bass playing under me right now.
好吧，我想到一個。 Okay, I got one.
"褐髮蘭登書屋派對。" "Brunette Random House Party."
蘭登書屋，出版商? "Random House," the publisher?
還是"隨機之家"比如隨機之家派對? Or "random house," like a random house party?
哦,」艾米麗時尚。」 Oh, "Emily Vogue."
我想用"卡拉"這個問號 Uh, I'm gonna go with "Kara question mark"
因為今晚我想讓宇宙給我一個驚喜。 'cause I feel like letting the universe surprise me tonight.
-活在這個時代真好。——倍。 - What a time to be alive. - Hundred percent.
——倍。——倍。 - Hundred percent. - Hundred percent.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
——倍。——倍。 - Hundred percent. - Hundred percent.
我想明白了。 I figured it out.
算出什麼? Figured what out?
美國。 America.
好的。 Okay.
我知道你在笑，但我有個點子你一定會喜歡。 I know you're laughing, but I have a pitch you're really gonna like.
美國是分裂的，但原因不是我們想的那樣。 America is divided, but it's not for the reason that we think.
我們認為美國是按地理位置劃分的 We think that America's divided by geography:
紅色州，藍色州，城市，國家。 red state, blue state, city, country.
我們錯過了一些更深刻的東西。 We're missing something far more profound.
美國不是被空間分割的。 America isn't divided by space.
美國被時間分割。 America is divided by time.
-我們不再活在當下。 -We don't live in the moment anymore. -Mm.
既然我們可以生活在任何有記錄的時刻，我們為什麼要這麼做呢? And why would we, when we can live in any moment that's ever been recorded?
當我們體驗到我們真正喜歡的東西時，我們的本能會以某種方式把它歸檔以便以後使用。 And when we experience something we really love, our overwhelming instinct is to somehow file it away for later.
這很有趣。 That's interesting.
我們不在電影院看電影。 We don't watch movies in the theater.
電視播出的時候我們不看。 We don't watch TV when it airs.
我們甚至不會同時聊天，因為我們會發短信。 We don't even have conversations at the same time because we text.
你發短信的時候，我可以說"嗨" And when you text, I can say, "Hi,"
你可以馬上說「嗨」回來，或者一分鐘。——或者從來沒有。 and you could say "Hi" back in a second, - or a minute. - Or never.
或者永遠不要，因為是你，你忙著製作美國最大的播客，這是我的觀點，因為我們都生活在我們自己的個性化時代。 Or never 'cause it's you and you're too busy producing the biggest podcast in America, which is kind of my point because we're all living in our own individualized times.
這就是為什麼我們生活在分裂的時代。 That's why we're living in divided times.
這是……我很喜歡這樣。哦。 That's... I like that. Ooh.
-你喜歡嗎?-是的。 - You like that? - Yeah.
你覺得怎麼樣?你覺得這是個故事嗎? So, what do you think? Do you think that's a story?
這是一個理論。 It's a theory.
-理論就是故事。-不，理論不是故事。 - A theory is a story. - No, a theory is not a story.
是的，當它是關於一個想法的時候。 Yes, it is when it's about an idea.
美國是一種理念。 And America is an idea.
所以才這麼棒。 That's what makes it so great.
-所以，如果你…-不，美國是它的人民。 - So, if you're... - No, America is its people.
所以才會這麼糟糕。 That's what makes it so fucked up.
嘿。不是每個紐約的白人都需要播客。 Hey. Not every white guy in New York needs to have a podcast.
您有已驗證的復選標記。 You have the verified check mark.
你得到了《紐約客》的職位。 You got the New Yorker position.
我想要更多。 I want something more.
我不只是想當作家。 I don't just want to be a writer.
我…我想成為一個聲音。 I... I want to be a voice.
雖然聽起來很傻，但我關心美國。 As dorky as it sounds, I care about America.
不是用拉娜·德雷那種褪色的方式。 And not in that faded Lana Del Rey way.
現在我看到它分崩離析，而我們只是站在角落裡，好像在嘲笑它，你知道嗎? And now I see it falling apart, and we're just standing in the corner, like, making fun of it, you know?
我想講個故事…連接。 I'd like to try to tell some story that... connects.
好吧,好吧。好吧,然後……讓我幫你連接。 Okay, okay. Well, then... let me help you connect.
你對美國的看法……即使它們很好，對嗎? With all your ideas about America... Even if they're good, right?
你得把它們放進故事裡，因為美國人喜歡聽故事。 You gotta put 'em in a story 'cause Americans listen to stories.
因為美國人也是人。 'Cause Americans are people.
他們不是…的想法。 They're not... ideas.
——你的身體。-是的。 - You're-you're here. - Yeah.
你需要留在這裡。 You need to be here.
明白了嗎? Does that make sense?
百分百。 Hundred percent.
我是羅賓·狄龍，這裡是美國時刻。 I'm Robin Dillon, and this is American Moment.
對於西蒙大拿州飛蠅釣魚活動的組織者 To the organizers of the Western Montana fly-fishing...
-嗨。-嗨。 - Hi. - Hey.
你換了髮型。 You changed your hair.
-是的，你注意到了。——當然。 - Yeah, you noticed. - Of course.
圖書界怎麼樣? How's the book world?
什麼? The what?
哦,什麼都沒有。要喝點什麼嗎? Uh, nothing. Uh, can I get you a drink?
——是的。——太棒了。 - Yes. - Great.
我能為你做點什麼? Um, what can I make you?
你能來點白葡萄酒嗎? Um, can you do, like, a white wine?
嗯,當然。 Um, sure.
我得開瓶喝才行。 I have to open a bottle for that.
哦,沒關係。打開它。 Oh, that's okay. Open it.
我只想來一杯。 I only want, like, one glass.
——你好嗎?——本? - Hello? - Ben?
是的。喂? Yeah. Hello?
這是你這輩子接到的最糟糕的電話。 This is the worst phone call you're ever gonna get in your life.
哦,我的上帝。 Oh, my God.
你的女朋友死了。 Your girlfriend's dead.
我很抱歉。Wh……你說什麼? I'm sorry. Wh... What did you say?
她死了。 She's dead.
不，不，是第一部分。 No, no, the first part.
你的女朋友。 Your girlfriend.
是的,我很抱歉。 Yeah, I'm sorry.
嗨,我不…我不明白你的意思。 Hey, I don't... I don't understand.
我知道。我知道，我知道。 I know. I know, I know.
我們也搞不懂。 We can't make no sense of it either.
這是誰? Who is this?
我是泰·肖。 This is Ty Shaw.
艾比的弟弟。 Abby's brother.
嗯，嘿，我不…我真不知道該說什麼。 Um, hey, I don't... I don't really know what to say.
我知道，我知道這很難接受。 Oh, I know, I know this must be so hard to process.
我很抱歉。 I'm so sorry.
艾比跟我們說了很多你的事。 Abby told us so much about you.
艾比。 Abby.
哦,我的上帝。 Oh, my God.
艾比。 Abby.
艾比是誰? Who's Abby?
嗯,一些女孩。嗯…- - - - - -那是誰?——呃,一些…我們確實一起出去玩了幾次。 Uh, some girl. Um... - Who's that? - Uh, some... We definitely hung out a few times.
我就不會…葬禮是星期天。 I-I wouldn't have... Funeral's Sunday.
哦,我的上帝。我,呃…你能告訴我哪裡可以送花嗎? Oh, my God. I'm, uh... Can you tell me where I can send flowers?
沒必要送花啊，本。 Oh, there's no need to send flowers, Ben.
哦，不，不，不，不，不。 Oh, no, no, no, no, no.
我一定會送花的。 I'm absolutely gonna send flowers.
告訴我地址就行了。 Just, uh, you tell me the address.
看你能不能發短信給我。 See if you can text it to me.
如果你真想去，機場旁邊有家花店。 If you really want, there's a flower shop by the airport.
我去接你的時候順便過去看看。 We'll just swing by there when I pick you up.
你什麼時候來接我? When you pick me up?
哦,嘿。 Uh, hey.
我的精神會在那裡。 I will be there in spirit.
精神航空公司。對的,男人。 Spirit Airlines. Right, man.
這是個不錯的選擇。 That's a great choice.
告訴我是哪個航班就行了。 You just let me know what flight.
呃，嘿，呃，我…這只是…我做不到。 Uh, hey, uh, I... This is just... I can't do this.
我們都做不到。 None of us can do this.
不是一個人。 Not alone.
你們都有自己的未來。 Y'all had your whole future ahead of you.
好的。 Okay.
好了,別哭了。 Okay, don't cry.
我的意思是，不，哭。哭了起來。 I mean, no, cry. Cry.
-嗯，當然。-哦,上帝。 - Um, of course. - Oh, God.
與你的情緒保持聯繫。嗯…真不敢相信我們要經歷這些。 Be in touch with your emotions. Um... I can't believe we have to go through this.
好的。好的。嗯,嗨。 Okay. All right. Um, hey.
提醒我一下你們到底在哪。 Remind me where you guys are exactly.
你以前去過德州嗎? Well, you've been to Texas before?
德克薩斯州。 Texas.
你在奧斯汀附近嗎? Okay, are you near Austin?
不，我們不在奧斯汀附近。 No, we're not near Austin.
——達拉斯?-達拉斯不是德克薩斯。 - Dallas? - Dallas ain't Texas.
——休斯頓?-休斯頓是另一個國家。 - Houston? - Houston's another country.
你為什麼不直接告訴我…你聽說過阿比林嗎?這座城市。 Why don't you just tell me where... Have you heard of Abilene? The city.
沒聽說過艾柏林，沒有。 Never heard of Abilene, no.
艾比林離達拉斯大約三小時車程。 Well, Abilene is about three hours from Dallas.
好的。 Okay.
我們離艾柏林有五個小時的路程。 And we're five hours from Abilene.
女士們,先生們… Ladies and gentlemen...
嘿。嗨。 Hey. Hi.
當她還是個小女孩的時候，她可能很難對付…… And while she could be quite a handful when she was a girl...
真不敢相信我在用過去時談論我女兒。 I can't believe I'm talking about my daughter in the past tense.
她住在紐約。 She was living in New York.
她在音樂中找到了自己的聲音。 She was finding her voice in music.
她終於找到了真愛。 And she finally found love.
本Manalowitz。 Ben Manalowitz.
一個成功的作家和紐約雜誌的定期供稿人。 A successful writer and a regular contributor to New York Magazine.
《紐約客》。 The New Yorker.
但即使他很成功，他也一直尊重我們的女兒。 But even with all his success, he always respected our girl for who she was.
「媽媽，」她說，「你知道他是怎麼把我存進手機裡的嗎? "Mama," she said, "you know how he has me saved in his phone?
德州」。 Texas."
雖然她的生命很短暫，但她找到了自己的聲音，找到了愛。 Well, as short as her life was, she found her voice, and she found love.
這就是全部了，對吧? And that's all there is, right?
這是正確的。 That's right.
讓我們聽聽本是怎麼說的。 Let's hear from Ben.
——繼續。-繼續，本。 - Go ahead. - Go on, Ben.
不,我不能。 No, I couldn't.
——謝謝。-沒問題。 - Thank you. - You got it.
-兄弟，上來。-請說點什麼。 - Brother, come up. - Please say something.
去那裡。 Get up there.
的父親。先生。 Father. Sir.
我從沒想過會陷入這樣的境地。 I never expected to be in a situation like this.
我敢肯定我們都沒有。 I'm sure none of us did.
我要是多瞭解她一點就好了。 I wish I had known her better.
我真希望能多陪陪她。 I wish I had spent more time with her.
我相信大家都覺得……現在。 I'm sure all of us feel that... right now.
是的。 Yes.
她喜歡音樂。 She loved music.
我知道。我知道。 I know that. I know that.
她喜歡音樂。 She loved music.
是的。 Yeah.
和…她將永遠是我們心中的一首歌。 And... she will always be a song in our hearts.
「我們心中的歌。」 "Song in our hearts."
唷。你那句話差點把我傷透了。 Phew. You damn near broke me with that one.
♪就是那八秒的機會♪ ♪ It's those eight-second chances ♪
♬和女牛仔的目光♬ ♪ And cowgirl glances ♪
♪這是血液和榮耀，寶貝，這就是我們馳騁的原因…♪ ♪ It's the blood and the glory, baby, that's why we ride... ♪
現在，我不知道你怎麼想，但是…我知道時間不長，但我覺得我和你，我們有真正的感情。 Now, I don't know about you, but... I know it hasn't been long, but I feel like me and you, we got a real bond.
有點像家人。 Kind of like family.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
哇。 Wow.
百分之一百? A hundred percent?
是的。 Yeah.
是的。我今天感覺和你們很親近。 Yeah. I felt really close to you guys today.
別這麼說了。 Don't just say that to say it.
-是的。-我就知道 - Yeah. - I knew it.
艾柏林沒有死。 Abilene just didn't die.
她是被謀殺的。 She was murdered.
我們兩個要為她報仇。 And the two of us are gonna avenge her death.
什麼? What?
你和我，我們要找到殺她的兇手，報仇雪恨。 You and me, we're gonna track her killer down and deliver vengeance.
好吧，沒人說有兇手。 Okay, nobody said anything about a killer.
過量? An overdose?
在油田的派對上? At a party in an oil field?
是的。這女孩一輩子連止痛藥都沒吃過。 Yeah. The girl never took so much as an Advil in her life.
你知道的。你比任何人都瞭解她。 You know that. You know her better than anybody.
你報警了嗎? Did you call the police about this?
在德州，我們不打911。 In Texas, we don't dial 911.
連火災都沒有嗎? Not even for, like, a fire?
火警或救護車都可以。 Fire or ambulance, fine.
你認為是誰幹的? Who do you think did it?
我有一些推測。 I got a couple theories.
卡特爾。我注意到一個墨西哥黑幫成員。 Cartels. Mexican gangbanger I got my eyes on.
我是說，這只是個開始。 I mean, this is just the beginning.
它深。 It goes deep.
這是基於什麼呢? And what's this based on?
的直覺。 Gut.
正確的。這背後是什麼呢? Right. What's behind that though?
內臟後面什麼都沒有。 Ain't nothing behind gut.
一切都是內臟的作用。否則，你是誰? Gut's behind everything else. Otherwise, who are you?
我覺得這事應該交給警方處理。 I really think this is something for the police.
是的。你說警察好像到處都一樣。 Yeah. You talk about the police like it's just the same everywhere.
就像警察是麥當勞，正義是蛋鬆餅。 Like the police is, um, McDonald's and justice is an Egg McMuffin.
我們沒有警察。 We don't have the police.
我們有邁克和丹。 We got Mike and Dan.
你和我，我們是她生命中的男人。 You and me, we were the men in her life.
他們惹錯了兩個人。 And they fucked with the wrong two guys.
好的。嗯…就像個人的界限，每個人都是不同的。 Okay. Um... So, as, like, a personal boundary, like, everybody's different.
有些人不吃某些食物。 Some people don't eat certain foods.
你知道,每個人都…-我不會為死亡復仇的——嗯。 You know, everybody... - I don't avenge deaths. - Mm-hmm.
這就是我。 It's just who I am.
我…我又不是活在連姆·尼森的電影裡。 I... You know, I don't live in a Liam Neeson movie.
但你看起來有點像連姆·尼森電影裡的人。 But you kind of look like a guy from a Liam Neeson movie though.
好的。 Okay.
我想的是哪一個? Which one am I thinking about?
那是輛火車。不,我是……-電視上剛播過。-我不知道。 It-it was a train. No, i-it was... - It was just on TV. - I don't know.
辛德勒的名單。哦,我的上帝。 Schindler's List. Oh, my God.
你看起來像電影裡的很多人。 You look like a lot of those guys in that movie.
是的。謝謝。 Yeah. Thanks.
那是我最不喜歡的連姆·尼森的電影。 You know, that was my least favorite Liam Neeson movie.
巨大的唐納。 Huge downer.
那是一部非常悲傷的電影。 It was a really sad movie.
泰，我知道你很痛苦。 Ty, I know that you're in a lot of pain.
是的，先生，我們都是。 Oh, yes, sir. We both are.
你有很多憤怒。 And you have a lot of anger.
該死，我在請求你的幫助。 Goddamn it, I'm asking you for your help.
如果我們不這麼做，就像把她的屍體丟在沙漠裡一輩子一樣。 If we don't do this, it's like leaving her body out in the middle of that desert for the rest of our lives.
我一見到你就知道了。 I know it the minute I saw you.
因為心看得見心。 'Cause heart sees heart.
留在這裡，和我一起為艾比報仇。 Stay down here and avenge Abby's death with me.
那將會是一個怎樣的故事。 Oh, what a story that would be.
這是袖珍表盤嗎? Is this a pocket dial?
我有個故事。 I have a story.
-能等等嗎?——沒有。 - Can it wait? - No.
我在德州。我在參加完葬禮回來的路上。 I'm in Texas. I'm on my way back from a funeral.
哦,我的上帝。我很抱歉。 Oh, my God. I'm so sorry.
沒關係。不是我親近的人。 It's okay. It's not someone I was close to.
但你飛去德州買的? But you flew to Texas for it?
嗯,是的。 Uh, yes.
是一個我上過幾次的女孩。 Uh, it was a girl I hooked up with a few times.
你飛去德州參加一個隨便勾搭的人的葬禮? You flew to Texas to attend the funeral of a random hookup?
她的家人認為我們比我更認真。 Her family thought that we were more serious than I did.
你知道嗎? Do you know what?
這是一個故事。 This is a story.
——是嗎?-是的。 - Yeah? - Yeah.
這是你的。 It's you.
的……你的整個生活方式。 The-the... Your whole way of life.
這是約會，這是勾搭文化。 It's dating, it's hookup culture.
它是如何使斷開連接的。 How it enables disconnectedness.
——自私。——沒有。 - The selfishness. - No.
的空虛。——沒有。 - The emptiness. - No.
——空曠。-我不是這個意思 - The hollowness. - That's not what I meant.
缺乏自我意識。 The lack of self-awareness.
好吧，我不是這個意思。 Okay, that's not what I'm pitching.
你的生活真的很悲慘。 It's really how sad your life is.
好吧，你在耍我。 Okay, now you're fucking with me.
聽著，我現在在西德克薩斯州有一家人的女兒死於阿片類藥物過量。 Listen, I'm in West Texas where this family just lost their daughter to an opioid overdose.
這很可悲，但也很常見。 That is sad but common.
不過，她哥哥不接受這是吸毒過量。 Except, her brother won't accept it's an overdose.
他說那是一起謀殺案。 He says it was a murder.
基於什麼? Based on what?
什麼都沒有。 Nothing.
這就是故事。 And that's the story.
這是一個存在主義犯罪故事。 This is an existential crime story.
這是《冷血》裡的情節，但沒有殺手。 This is In Cold Blood, but there are no killers.
這是關於人們無法接受的美國新現實。 This is about a new American reality that people can't accept.
所以，他們發明了這些神話和陰謀，這樣他們就可以把自己塑造成英雄，因為……事實太難以接受了。 So instead, they invent these myths and conspiracies so they can cast themselves as heroes because... the truth is too hard to accept.
阿比林的死是關於美國身份認同的死亡，以及尋找替罪羊的需要。 The death of Abilene is about the death of American identity and the need to find someone to blame for it.
這不僅僅是一個關於復仇的故事。 This isn't just a story about vengeance.
這是一個關於復仇的故事。 It's a story about the need for vengeance.
復仇的意義。 The meaning of vengeance.
死白人女孩? Dead white girl?
播客的聖盃。 Holy grail of podcasts.
埃洛伊塞，我真希望我的錄音機開著。 Eloise, I wish my recorder were already on.
他已經在說這些瘋狂的事情了。 He's saying such crazy things already.
她的哥哥嗎? Her brother?
他就是這樣一個人物。 He is such a character.
這樣你就能接近他的家人了? And you can get close to the family?
我能接近他的家人嗎? Can I get close to the family?
他們認為我是她的男朋友。 They think I was her boyfriend.
我的意思是……我參加了她的葬禮，看在上帝的份上。 I mean... I went to her funeral, for God's sake.
那很好。 That's good.
我是說，這很糟糕，但是…但這是好的。 I mean, it's fucked up, but... but it's good for this.
所以呢? So?
好吧，我們試一試。 Okay, let's give it a shot.
哦! Oh!
好吧，告訴我。給我一切。 Okay, talk to me. Give me everything.
和家人待在一起，盡可能接近他們，記錄下一切。 Stay with the family, get as close as possible, record everything.
因為你永遠不知道什麼是重要的。 'Cause you never know what will be important.
我將是你的編輯，所以我將選擇-看看有什麼。——好的。 I'll be your editor, so I'll pull selects - and see what's there. - Okay.
我會讓特蕾西連夜把設備給你，但在此期間用你的手機把報道弄好，注意安全。 I'll have Tracy overnight you the equipment, but just use your phone in the meantime and get the story, stay safe.
你明白了。 You got it.
-不是這個順序。-按這個順序。 - Not in that order. - In that order.
西德克薩斯的塵埃就像雨水落在湖面上。 The dust in West Texas settles like rain on a lake.
我在西德克薩斯的天空下，德州明亮的藍色天空下，在那裡我剛剛得知了艾比林·肖的死訊。 I'm under a West Texas sky, bright blue Texan sky, where I've just learned about the death of Abilene Shaw.
我的…一個人……誰住在這裡。 My... A person... who lived here.
地獄啊,兄弟。 Hell yeah, brother.
好吧。 All right.
我要和你們一起住幾周。 I'm gonna stay with you guys for a couple of weeks.
我會把你認為發生在艾柏林身上的一切都錄下來。 I'm gonna record everything that you think happened to Abilene.
——好嗎?地獄——是的。那我們就殺了他。 - Okay? - Hell yes. Then we kill him.
不。 No.
我要把它放到播客上…它將在播客平台上播出。 I'm gonna put it on a podcast... and it will be on podcast platforms.
這是他媽的輝煌。 That's fucking brilliant.
-是的。-你真他媽聰明。 - Yeah. - You're fucking smart.
好吧。 All right.
一旦Reddit上的人發現了……他們會為我們殺了他。 Once people on Reddit find out... they'll kill him for us.
好吧。 All right.
嘿,媽媽。 Hey, Mama.
猜猜最後誰回來了。 Guess who came back after all.
本。 Ben.
-嗨。-我的天啊你回來了。 - Hi. - Oh, my God. You came back.
啊…哦。謝謝你！ Ah... Oh. Thank you.
希望我沒給你添麻煩 Um, I hope I'm not imposing.
拜託。 Please.
我們餐桌上有個空位子。 We have this empty seat at the table.
我們可以利用一切機會分散注意力。 We can use all the distraction we can get.
你需要什麼嗎? Can I get you anything?
嗯…只是，無線網絡怎麼樣了? Um... Uh, just, uh, what's the Wi-Fi situation?
哦，它有點喜怒無常……它會。 Oh, it's a little temperamental... it'll kick in.
你之前見過大家嗎? Did you have a chance to meet everybody before?
哦,不。 Uh, no.
我很樂意。 I would love to.
-這是Abilene的妹妹Paris。-你好。 -Uh, this is Abilene's sister, Paris. -Hi.
-她24歲，準備25歲——是的。 - She's 24, fixin' to be 25. - Yep.
她會成為一個著名的電影製作人。 She's gonna be a famous filmmaker.
很高興認識你，帕裡斯。 It is a pleasure to meet you, Paris.
快樂。我聽說過很多關於你的事。 Pleasure. I've heard so much about you.
我我聽說……是的。 I've-I've heard... Yeah.
這是堪薩斯城。 And this is Kansas City.
她17歲，馬上就要18歲了。 She's 17, fixin' to be 18.
她會成為一個著名的…著名的。 And she's gonna be a famous... Just famous.
KC，我告訴過你。 KC, I told you.
這些不是我們的價值觀。 Those are not our values.
你得是名人才行。 You have to be a famous something.
一個著名的…名人。 A famous... celebrity.
她們真的是你的女兒嗎? These are really your daughters?
我是說，你們都可以成為姐妹。 I mean, you all could be sisters.
哦。你真貼心。 Oh. You are so sweet.
你覺得我看起來有這麼老嗎? You think that I look this fucking old?
這是El Stupido。 And this is El Stupido.
——對不起?-我是艾爾·Stupido。 - Sorry? - This is El Stupido.
你是這麼叫他的? That's what you call him?
哦。沒關係,本。 Oh. It's okay, Ben.
他不會說西班牙語。 He don't speak Spanish.
還有，你多大了? And, uh, and how old are you?
九個 Nine.
改成10個? Fixin' to be ten?
是的,先生。 Yes, sir.
男孩,來吧。 Boys, come on.
-本，過來坐。——謝謝。 - Ben, come take a seat. - Thank you.
順便說一句，你的家真漂亮。 You have a lovely home, by the way.
——謝謝。-真的很不錯。 - Thank you. - It's really nice.
-這是卡蘿奶奶。-是的。 - This is Granny Carole. - Yeah.
奶奶。 Granny for short.
-很高興見到你，奶奶。-是的。 - Um, nice to meet you, Granny. - Yeah.
謝謝你！嗯…本，跟我們說說你自己吧。 Thank you. Um... So, Ben, tell us about yourself.
你來自一個親密的家庭嗎? Do you come from a close family?
是的。我們關係很好。 Yes. Um, we're very close.
我們不常見面，但我們很親近。 We don't see each other much, but we're very close.
你來自德克薩斯州嗎? You from Texas?
哦。不,我不是。 Oh. No, I'm not.
哦,我很抱歉。 Oh, I'm sorry.
你不是德州人 That you're not from Texas.
-你以前去過德州嗎，本?實際上,-是的。 -Have you been to Texas before, Ben? -Yes, actually.
我去過奧斯汀，《南方偏南》的。 I've been to Austin, uh, for South By.
為了什麼? For what?
哦，西南偏南是一年一度的節日…不，是哪個樂隊的? Uh, oh, South by Southwest is an annual festiv... No, for what band?
你不可能就這麼去了。 You don't just go to South By.
你會去看樂隊，對吧? You go see a band, don't you?
嗯,嗯,真的。 Uh, well, true.
我參加了一個關於新媒體未來的新聞小組。 I was part of a journalism panel about the future of new media.
——不可思議。-太酷了。 - Amazing. - That's so cool.
-嗯-謝謝——歡迎你。 - Mm. -Thank you. - You're welcome.
嗯,說到。 Um, speaking of.
你介意我錄下這頓晚餐嗎? Would you mind if I recorded this dinner?
——哦。-現在就錄? - Oh. - Record us now?
-是的。地獄——是的。 - Yeah. - Hell yeah.
我們會介意嗎? Would we mind?
-我喜歡被錄音。——太棒了。太棒了。 - I love being recorded. - Great. Fantastic.
哦,我的上帝。 Oh, my God.
——嘿,微笑。好吧?——太棒了。 - Hey, smile. Okay? - Great.
你想聽德州的故事嗎? Well, would you want to hear the story of Texas?
——當然。嗯?——去,奶奶。 - Absolutely. -Huh? - Go, Granny.
好的。在這裡。 All right. Right here.
——我的天哪。 - My goodness. - Mm. Okay.
1836. 1836.
德州是墨西哥的一部分，由移民和講英語的白人組成。 Texas is part of Mexico, made up of settlers and English-speaking white folk.
他們不喜歡政府。 And, uh, they didn't like the government.
還有什麼新鮮的? What else is new?
德州人想按自己的方式做事。 Them Texans wanted to do things their own way.
還有什麼新鮮的? What else is new?
所以，你考慮了所有人最喜歡的兩件事，政府和墨西哥人。 So, you take everybody's two favorite things, government and Mexicans.
猜猜會發生什麼。 And guess what happens.
——嗯?——繼續。 - Huh? - Go on.
——猜。-你應該…在你的文字裡。 - Guess. - You should... In your words.
好的。好吧。 All right. All right.
大元帥桑塔·安納召集了7000名墨西哥士兵在阿拉莫與186名德克薩斯叛軍作戰。 Well, Generalissimo Santa Anna brung up 7,000 Mexican soldiers to fight against 186 Texan rebels at a place called the Alamo.
德克薩斯人贏了。 And the Texans won.
這是非常鼓舞人心的。 That's very inspiring.
你說什麼? Say what?
德州人沒有贏，本。 The Texans didn't win, Ben.
你哪裡教數學的? They teach math where you from?
186.7,000。 186.7,000.
嗯…7000多了，本。 Um... 7,000 is more, Ben.
這是一場大屠殺。 It was a massacre.
那是無法形容的殘忍。 It was unspeakable cruelty.
無法形容的殘忍。 Unspeakable cruelty.
我很抱歉。我不知道你沒贏得阿拉莫。 I'm sorry. I had no idea you didn't win the Alamo.
嗯…我覺得你們經常談論這件事。 Um... I feel like you guys talk about it a lot.
誰是「春分美女」? Who's "Equinox Girl Cute"?
嗯,一個朋友。 Um, a friend.
誰是「巴黎評論派對亞洲人」? Who's "Paris Review Party Asian"?
——對不起。嗯…-非常好的閱讀。 - Excuse me. Um... - Very good reading.
我,呃…無線網肯定是剛打開的。 Let me, uh... The Wi-Fi must have just kicked on.
「娜塔莉熊」是誰? Who's "Natalie Bumble"?
-讓我…-誰是凱蒂·拉亞? - Um, let-let me just... - Who's "Katie Raya"?
-讓我穿上…——萊雅? - Let me put that on... - Raya?
我把它調成飛行模式。 Let me put that on airplane mode.
我以為拉亞應該是專一的。 I thought Raya was supposed to be exclusive.
你覺得這個地方怎麼樣，本? So what do you think of this place, Ben?
我愛它。 I love it.
-你在開玩笑吧?你是認真的嗎?你愛它嗎? - Are you joking? - Are you serious? You love it?
你來自紐約。 You're from New York City.
-這裡什麼都沒發生。-是的。 -Literally nothing happens here. -Yeah.
嗯,嗯…我是說，這有點……——嗯?——你知道的。 Well, um... I mean, it is a little... - Hmm? - You know.
黯淡。-拜託，這不公平。 -Bleak. -Come on, that's not fair.
-我們剛發現一個目標。——請問?你怎麼敢? - We just got a Target. - Excuse me? How dare you?
你知道我們的足球隊有多棒嗎? Do you know how fucking good our football team is?
-這是我們的小鎮。-好吧，聽著，我不知道去哪裡…在這裡降落。嗯…本，關於這個地方，有些事你應該知道。-是的。 -This is our town. -Okay, look, I don't know where to... where to land here. Um... Ben, there's probably something you should know - about this place. - Yeah.
這是地球上最，最悲慘，最荒涼的地方。 This is the most, uh, wretched, godforsaken stretch of land on the face of the earth.
我永遠不會離開。 And I'd never leave.
你明白我的意思嗎? You know what I mean?
是的。這就是我對Twitter的感覺。 Yeah. That's how I feel about Twitter.
-嗯-本是個記者 - Mm. - See, Ben's a journalist.
那裡最好的一個。 One of the finest there is.
他為《紐約雜誌》撰稿。 He writes for the New York Magazine.
《紐約客》。是的。 New Yorker. Yep.
他會幫我們找出艾柏林到底發生了什麼。 And he's gonna help us find out what really happened to Abilene.
我是說我們出去找個。45歲，但本給了我們一個全新的視角。 I was saying we go out and settle with a . 45, but Ben gives a whole new perspective to the situation.
泰，點45口徑的槍是解決不了這種問題的。 Ty, you can't solve something like this with a .45.
這不像一個人那麼簡單。 It's not as simple as one person.
這是一個完整的系統，孩子。 It's a whole system, son.
告訴我們你是什麼意思，奶奶。 Tell us what you mean, Granny.
這是社會的崩潰，就是這樣。 It's the breakdown of society, is what it is.
這是學校系統的崩潰-政府。 It's the breakdown of the school system, - the government. - Mm.
是製藥公司。 It's the pharmaceutical companies.
這是家庭和傳統的崩潰。 It's the breakdown of the family and tradition.
艾比林的死有很多人要負責。——這是真的。 Oh, there's a whole lot of people responsible - for what happened to Abilene. - That's true.
——是的,女士。——阿門。 - Yes, ma'am. - Amen.
我認為這是非常明智的。 I think that's very wise.
你需要一把12口徑的槍，幾個急救器。 You're gonna need a 12-gauge, couple of ARs.
——沒有。是的。-威森自動手槍。 - No. -Yep. - A Wesson automatic.
-不不不-為了安全還要配把槍。 - No, no, no. - And a sidearm for safety.
——是的。完全正確。-我們不會那麼做的 - Yep. Exactly. - We're not doing that.
哦,我們不是嗎?是的。 Oh, we're not? Yeah.
我沒想到你有這個膽。 I didn't think you had the balls.
你會幫我們嗎，本? Are you gonna help us, Ben?
你知道,嗯…有些事情是我擅長的。 You know, um... There's some things I'm good at.
我擅長提出正確的問題。 I'm good at asking the right questions.
我很擅長讓人開口。 I'm good at getting people to talk.
我特別擅長在看似不相干的元素之間建立主題聯繫，並用它來闡述一個更大的觀點或理論。 And I'm especially good at drawing thematic connections between seemingly disparate elements and using that to illustrate a larger point or theory.
所以，無論誰或任何東西對艾柏林的遭遇負責，我會找到這個人或這個廣義的社會力量，我會給它下定義。 So, whoever or whatever is responsible for what happened to Abilene, I will find this person or this generalized societal force, and I will define it.
我將定義它。 I'll define it.
祝福你的心。 Bless your heart.
我想我們現在有客房了。 I guess we have a guest room now.
泰。 Ty.
好吧，好好休息。 Well, rest up good.
我們明早見，開始解決這個問題。 We'll meet in the morning and start to solve this.
是的。 Yeah.
明早見。 See you in the morning.
-晚安，泰-晚安 - Good night, Ty. - Good night.
早上好。 Good morning.
是的,就是這樣。什麼……? Yeah, that's it. What else...?
-我能說這證明了很多嗎?-是的。 - Can I say it proves a lot? - Yeah.
我要在這裡稍作休息，在此期間，我希望你們能在這個漫長而重要的會員運動中致電支持我們電台。——謝謝。 I'm gonna take a short break here, and during this break, I hope you'll call and support this station during this long, important - membership drive. - Thanks.
我們有一些很棒的免費禮物要送給你，我說的不只是咖啡杯。 We have some great free gifts to offer you, and I'm not just talking coffee mugs.
本，這裡的生活有兩個版本。 Well, Ben, there's really two versions of life out here.
繁榮時期，每個人都很富有，很忙。 Boom times, everybody's rich and busy.
就像一場盛大的派對。 It's like one big party out here.
然後蕭條來了。 And then the bust comes.
這裡就像兩個不同的地方。 It's really like two different places out here.
要麼繁榮，要麼蕭條。 It's always boom or bust.
現在是哪一種? Which is it right now?
有點。 Kinda in between.
是的。 Yeah.
說實話，介於兩者之間。 Kinda in between, to tell you the truth.
好的。 Okay.
你這個…——離開。——爬。這就是我們的蠕蟲。 You son of a... - Get off. - Crawl. There's our worm.
哦，你喜歡高高在上。 Oh, you like being on top.
——離開。是的。——哇! - Get off. Yeah. - Whoo!
這傢伙嗎? This the guy?
是的。 Yep.
嗯。 Hmm.
讓我幫你省點時間:桑切洛。 Let me save you some time: Sancholo.
Sancholo。Sancholo。 Sancholo. Sancholo.
Sancholo是什麼? What's Sancholo?
那個殺了艾柏林的人。 The guy who killed Abilene.
一個墨西哥毒販。 A Mexican drug dealer.
邪惡的混蛋。 Evil motherfucker.
你能想到的，他都有。 You name it, he's got it.
不過我對他的價格不太滿意。 Not crazy about his prices though.
你知道誰殺了艾柏林嗎? So, you know who killed Abilene?
是的,先生。 Yes, sir.
你報警了嗎? Did you call the police about it?
邁克和丹嗎? Mike and Dan?
那些懶惰的fucktards。 Those lazy fucktards.
一切都是一個意外。 Everything's an accident.
槍支意外。 Gun accident.
哦,駕車事故。 Uh, driving accident.
我從小就認識艾比林了。 I've known Abilene since we were knee-high to a grasshopper.
她連止痛藥都沒碰過，然後，突然間，他們發現了這個天使，這個天使，死於羥考酮過量在他開的派對上! She never touched so much as an Advil, and-and then, out of the blue, they find this angel, this angel, dead of an oxy OD at a party he threw!
哦，你讓我暖和起來了。 Ooh, you're getting me warmed up.
他從中學起就對她著迷了。 He's been obsessed with her since middle school.
是的。他每天晚上都給家裡打電話。 Yep. He'd call the house every night.
他們以前會打幾個小時的電話。 They used to be on the phone for hours.
反正他也只是其中的一部分。 He's just a piece of it anyway.
它太大了，無法理解。 It's too big to understand.
你和毒品販子，販毒集團，戀童癖在床上糾纏不清。——嗯。 You got deep state in bed with pill pushers, - cartels, pedos. - Uh-huh.
——法律。——怎樣,……嘿,噓。嘿。 - The law. - How, wha... Hey, shh. Hey.
你也是其中的一份子。 And you're a piece of it, too.
我很想和你提到的一些角色聊聊。 So, um, I'd love to talk to some of the characters you mentioned.
邁克和丹嗎?Sancholo嗎? Mike and Dan? Sancholo?
他肯定在霍利斯頓的牛仔競技會上。 Oh, he's gotta be at the rodeo in Holliston.
毫無疑問。 No doubt.
在那兒，還有之後的下等酒館。 There and the honky-tonk, too, afterwards.
-那是毒販最擅長的地方。 -That's where a drug dealer can do their best business. -Mm.
因為每個人都去看牛仔表演。 'Cause everybody goes to the rodeo.
白色,墨西哥人。 White, Mexicans.
你真的想和他一起為她報仇嗎? You really want to avenge her with him?
我就像你的兄弟一樣。 I'm like a brother to you.
他就像個姐夫。 Well, he's like a brother-in-law.
哦,來吧。 Oh, come on.
本，你打過架嗎? Ben, you ever been in a fight?
你是指肢體衝突還是網絡衝突? You mean like a physical fight or like an online skirmish?
我得到了他。 I got him.
連蒼蠅都不會傷害的，對吧，爬蟲? Crawl wouldn't hurt a fly, would you, Crawl?
我從來沒有理解過關於蒼蠅的那種說法。 I never understood that expression about flies.
是啊，我想殺蒼蠅，但什麼樣的變態會傷害蒼蠅? Yeah, I'd kill a fly, but what kind of sick fuck would hurt a fly?
讓它感到疼痛?嗯? Make it feel pain? Hmm?
你根本不知道自己在哪，對吧? You don't have any idea where you are, do you?
嗯? Hmm?
要我給你看地圖嗎? Want me to show you a map?
歡迎來到德州。 Welcome to Texas.
你在這裡。 You are here.
早上,KC。 Morning, KC.
嘿。 Hey.
你想喝點咖啡嗎? Uh, would you like some coffee?
——確定。-你怎麼看? - Sure. - How do you take it?
在嘴裡嗎? In the mouth?
好吧，跟我說說你喜歡的地方。 All right, tell me something that you love about where you live.
——Whataburger, !——喔。 - Whataburger! - Whoo.
——哦。-是的。——好了,好了。 - Oh. -Yeah. - Okay, great.
嗯，跟我說說。 Um, tell me about it.
-你想現在就走嗎?-是的，我們走。 - You want to go right now? - Yeah, let's go.
——嗯…嗯…我準備好了。 - Uh... Uh... - I'm ready.
你想要…-就，不，就，呃，告訴我。 -You want... -Just, no, just, uh, tell me about it.
你會喜歡Whataburger的，Ben。 You're gonna love Whataburger, Ben.
-這是最好的。-是什麼讓它成為最好的? - Oh, it's the best. - What makes it the best?
不管你在哪，都有Whataburger。 Wherever you are, there's a Whataburger.
是的。它總是在那裡。 Yeah. It's always right there.
好的。當你到了那裡，你喜歡那裡的什麼?你得到了什麼? Okay. And then when you get there, what do you like about it? What do you get?
-隨你便。-它總是在那裡。 - Whatever you want. - It's always right there.
你想點什麼就點什麼，本。 You could order whatever you want, Ben.
沒錯，但有很多地方都是這樣。 Right, but there are a lot of places like that.
假設有一家麥當勞，一家漢堡王，一家索尼克和一家Whataburger。 So, let's say there is a McDonald's, a Burger King, a Sonic and a Whataburger all lined up.
你去哪一家? Which one do you go to?
Whataburger ! Whataburger!
對的,正確的。為什麼? Right, right. Why?
因為它就在那裡! Because it's right there!
是的，但是它們都在那裡。 Yes, but they're all right there.
在這種情況下，它們都在這裡。 In this scenario, they're all right there.
你從什麼漢堡店得到了什麼? So, what do you get out of Whataburger?
什麼對你更好? What makes it better to you?
-你要什麼…——本。 - What are you getting... - Ben.
問你為什麼喜歡Whataburger就像問你為什麼喜歡聖誕節或夏夜或你為什麼喜歡你的狗一樣。 Asking why you love Whataburger is like asking why you love Christmas or a summer night or why you love your dog.
我是說，你可以指出原因，但原因不是重點。 I mean, you could point to the reasons, but the reasons aren't really the point.
你就是愛它，愛就是這樣。 You just love it, and that's how love works.
我要去買點當地的好東西。 I'm on my way to get what could be some good local color.
那是阿比林錄小樣的地方。 It's the place Abilene recorded some demos.
我要去昆汀·塞勒斯音樂工廠。 I'm heading towards the Quentin Sellers Music Factory.
在藝術小鎮瑪法的一個地方，在那裡……人們追求音樂明星的夢想。 A place in Marfa, the arts town, where... people pursue their dreams of musical stardom.
他的座右銘是「從2018年開始讓夢想成真」。 His motto is "making dreams come true since 2018."
埃洛伊塞，如果你有…如果你能放一段麗貝卡·布萊克的歌《星期五》 Eloise, if you have, um... if you can play a clip of that, um, Rebecca Black song, "Friday,"
在這裡會很有趣。 that would be really funny here.
我打賭玩這個很便宜。 I bet it's cheap to play.
對，對，♬ ♪ Yeah, yeah ♪
是的♪♪ ♪ Yeah ♪
好的。 Okay.
-嗨。-嗨。 - Hi. - Hi.
音樂是什麼? What is music?
比如唱歌之類的。 Like, singing and stuff.
是的,這是正確的。 Yeah, that's right.
讓我們後退一步。 Let's take a step back.
我想和你分享一個想法。 I want to share an idea with you.
沒有比宇宙如何形成更深奧的爭論了。 There's no argument more profound than how the universe came into existence.
-哦,上帝。-我們在這裡是因為上帝還是科學? - Oh, God. - Are we here because of God or science?
我的意思是，從本質上講，這是最基本的問題。 I mean, it is, by its very nature, the most fundamental question.
但有一件事大家都同意。 But there's one thing that everyone agrees on.
那就是上帝是否宣稱"要有光" And that is whether it was God declaring, "Let there be light,"
或者一個無限的能量粒子在大爆炸中爆發。 or an infinite particle of energy bursting forth in the big bang.
每個人，我是說每個人，都同意宇宙始於一種聲音。 Everyone, and I mean everyone, agrees that the universe started with a sound.
為什麼我稱自己為唱片製作人? Why do I call myself a record producer?
我不知道。 I don't know.
是啊，我們現在都不錄唱片了。 Yeah, I mean, we don't even make records anymore.
我們在這裡錄的不是你的唱片。 What we're recording here isn't your record.
這是你的聲音……記錄從時間的第一個時刻開始。 It's your sound... on the record that started with the very first moment in time.
所以當你唱這首歌的時候… So when you sing this song...
我想讓你思考你所做的是如何記錄你在這個世界上的時間的。 I want you to think about how what you're making is the record of your time here on this earth.
它是你用生命去抓的聲音……在宇宙的記錄上。 It's the sound that you scratch with your life... on the record of the universe.
——好嗎?——好的。 - Okay? - Okay.
♬我在克萊爾家下班♬ ♪ I finished my shift at Claire's ♪
♪爬上那些陡峭的商場樓梯♪ ♪ Climbed up those steep mall stairs ♪
♪還有無處可去的痛苦 ♪ And the pain of having nowhere to go ♪
♪刺穿了我靈魂的皮膚♪ ♪ Pierced the skin of my soul ♪
♪當我坐在台階上♪ ♪ As I sat on the steps ♪
♬等啊等啊 ♪ And waited and waited ♪
♪沒有人能送我回家。♪ ♪ For no one to take me home. ♪
是的。 Yeah.
謝謝你！ Thank you.
我把這個地方叫做「工廠」。 I call this place the Factory.
-你知道，在安迪·沃霍爾的工廠之後。嗯。 -You know, after Andy Warhol's Factory. -Hmm.
這裡的大多數人認為這是參考了C+C音樂工廠。 Most people around here think it's a reference to C+C Music Factory.
說實話，我覺得沃霍爾會喜歡的，但是…是的,真的。是的。 Which, honestly, I-I think Warhol would've loved, but... Yeah, actually. Yeah.
我來自這裡。 I'm from out here.
我在紐黑文上的大學。 I went to college in New Haven.
我在波士頓上過學。 Oh, I went to school in Boston.
是啊，我想過住在那裡，但這裡需要這樣的東西。 Yeah, I thought about staying there, but this is the place that needs something like this.
問題不在於人們不聰明。 The problem isn't that people aren't smart.
問題是他們確實是。 The problem is that they are.
如果風景是這樣的，人們都很無聊，你就不會有這個問題了。 If the landscape is like this, a-and people were just boring, you wouldn't have this problem.
問題是，你得到了所有這些明亮的，有創意的燈，卻無處插入他們的能量。 The problem is, you get all these bright, creative lights and nowhere to plug in their energy.
所以它被引向陰謀論，毒品和暴力。 And so it gets channeled into conspiracy theories and drugs and violence.
現在你最喜歡的音樂藝術家是誰? Who are your favorite music artists right now?
嗯…-我能猜一下嗎?-是的。 Um... - Can I take a guess? - Yeah.
你喜歡播放列表。 You're a playlist guy.
這是什麼意思? What does that mean?
當一些電腦根據你最喜歡的歌曲向你推薦一堆，然後根據你最喜歡的歌曲再推薦一堆。-對。 When some computer recommends you a bunch of songs based on your favorites, and a bunch more -based on your favorites of those. -Right.
所以你在聽一堆音樂-我是說，你真的喜歡…-是的。 So you're listening to a bunch of music that, - I mean, you genuinely like... - Yeah.
但你不知道是誰唱的。 But you have no idea who sings it.
這些歌單，就像約會軟體裡的音樂。 Now, these playlists, it's like the dating app for music.
你沒有聽到其他人的聲音。 You're not hearing other people's voices.
你只是聽到自己的聲音被回放。 You're just hearing your voice get played back at you.
你怎麼能墜入愛河呢? How are you supposed to fall in love?
藝術曾經掌控著我們。 Art used to be in charge of us.
你以前買一整張專輯都不知道裡面會有什麼歌。 You used to buy a whole album not even knowing what songs would be on it.
現在我們什麼都有。 Now we have everything on demand.
在你的指尖。 At your fingertips.
在碎片。 In pieces.
你覺得那些貼出奧斯卡·王爾德語錄的人有一半真的讀過他的戲劇嗎? You think half the people that are posting quotes from Oscar Wilde have ever actually read one of his plays?
不。 No.
或者上傳奧黛麗·赫本的照片真的看過電影? Or posting photos of Audrey Hepburn have actually seen the film that it's from?
——沒有。-不可能，對吧? - No. - Not a chance, right?
這是怎麼回事? What is that about, huh?
這在文化上和考古學上是一樣的。 It's the same in culture as it is in archaeology.
當一個文明崩潰時，只剩下最微小的碎片。 When a civilization collapses, only the tiniest fragments remain.
但我們可以重建它。 But we can build it back again.
如何? How?
錄音。 Make recordings.
真實的人。 Real people.
而不是人們認為他們已經知道和想要聽到的。 Not what people think that they already know and want to hear.
真實的人。 Real people.
不是一般的刻板印象或一般的歌曲。 Not some generic stereotype or generic song.
真實的人。 Real people.
這個播客到底是關於什麼的? What's this podcast about anyway?
嗯，是關於美國的。 Well, um, it's about America.
好的。 Okay.
這是關於我們告訴自己的神話。 It's about the myths that we tell ourselves.
是關於誰的? Who is it about?
我們所有的人。 All of us.
我們講的每一個故事最終都是關於一個人的。 Every story we tell is ultimately about a person.
阿比林蕭。 Abilene Shaw.
阿比林。 Abilene.
是的。 Yeah.
你在做一個關於艾柏林的播客。 You're making a podcast about Abilene.
嗯，有一點關於阿比林。 Well, it's a little about Abilene.
-我想讓它更…-不。 -I'm trying to make it more about... -No.
阿比林。 It's about Abilene.
的人。 The person.
這就是你所需要的。 That's all you need.
你覺得她的音樂怎麼樣? What did you think about her music?
我還沒聽過呢。 I haven't really heard it.
關上前門。 Shut the front door.
-我是說，我有…-哇，哇，哇，等等 - I mean, I have... - Whoa, whoa, whoa, hold on.
跟我來。 Come with me.
在這兒。 Here it is.
我們所記錄的一切。 Everything we ever recorded.
-非常感謝。-你會有收穫的。 - Thank you so much. - You're in for a treat.
她不是有個想當歌手的姐姐嗎? Doesn't she have a sister who wants to be a singer?
想要出名。 Wants to be famous.
說明她知道自己是個大人物。 Means she knows she's somebody.
只是還不知道是誰。 Just doesn't know who yet.
她需要找到自己的聲音。 She needs to find her voice.
那我的聲音呢? What about my voice?
我帶你去演播室。 I'll put you in the studio.
你想做什麼? What do you want to do?
你知道,我……如果我是來咨詢我的聲音的，我的…我的寫作，我的播客，你會告訴我什麼? I-I, you know... If I came here for advice about my voice, my... you know, my writing, my podcast, what would you tell me?
我可能會說沒有人會寫任何東西。 I'd probably say that nobody writes anything.
我們所做的就是翻譯。 All we do is translate.
所以如果你被困住了，不知道該說什麼……只是聽。 So if you ever get stuck and you don't know what to say... just listen.
即使是在沉默中。 Even to the silences.
盡你所能傾聽你周圍的世界……重複你聽到的內容。 Listen as hard as you can to the world around you and... repeat back what you hear.
這個翻譯，就是你的聲音。 That translation, that's your voice.
我得說，這和我預想的完全不一樣。 I gotta say, this is not anything like what I expected to find.
你是來取笑我的，對吧? You came here to make fun of me, didn't you?
——不,不。不。-不，我明白…這是……我明白了。 - No, no. No. - No, I get it's... It's... I get it.
一個荒無人煙的唱片製作人。 Record producer in the middle of nowhere.
你以為我會更傻，更小。 You thought I'd be sillier, smaller.
我明白了。 I get it.
嘿,你看。 Hey, look.
它已經工作了。 It's already working.
你聽著。 You listened.
你學到的東西。 You learned.
歡迎來到德州。 Welcome to Texas.
謝謝你！ Thank you.
夕陽把德州照得一片火紅。 The setting sun sets Texas afire with a glow.
等等，等等，等等。 Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
這是他媽的漂亮。 It's fucking beautiful.
嗯,你好。 Well, hi.
謝謝你！ Thank you.
當我告訴我媽我要搬到紐約去嘗試在音樂界闖出一片天地時，她看著我說"上帝保佑你的心" Uh, when I told my mama that I was gonna move to New York and try and make it in music, she looked at me and she just said, "Bless your heart."
德州的意思是"去你媽的" Which is Texas for, "Fuck you."
愛你,媽媽。 Love you, Mama.
真正的愛情會在最後找到你 ♪ True love will find you in the end ♪
♬你會發現誰才是你的朋友 ♪ You'll find out just who is your friend ♪
♪不要難過，我知道你會……♪ ♪ Don't be sad, I know you will... ♪
啊…你能幫我把槍打開嗎? Ah... Will you help me unjam my gun?
我不知道該怎麼做。 I don't know how to do that.
他們應該叫你艾爾·Stupido。 They ought to call you El Stupido.
我可以睡在你的地板上嗎? Can I sleep on your floor?
是的。 Yeah.
當然。 Of course.
謝謝你！ Thank you.
♬我還在開車♬ ♪ I'm still drivin' ♪
♬這破車什麼時候開?♪ ♪ When's this break gon' come? ♪
♪你支持我的選擇♪ ♪ You back my pickin' ♪
♬拿著大大的定音鼓……♪ ♪ With a big ol' timpani drum... ♪
復仇是一種獨特的現象。 Vengeance is a unique phenomenon.
德州發明了復仇。 Texas invented vengeance.
如果你仔細想想，就會發現這毫無意義。 It makes no sense if you think about it.
人類的其他所有原始本能都會帶來明顯的進化回報。 Every other primal human instinct leads to a clear evolutionary reward.
但復仇是不同的。 But vengeance is different.
這與未來無關。 It's not about the future.
這只是關於過去。 It's only about the past.
大屠殺發生時，我們沒有撤退。 When that massacre happened, we didn't retreat.
我們沒有說，「讓我們都確保我們不會患上墨西哥恐懼癥。」 We didn't say, "Let's all make sure we don't get Mexiphobia."
我們說:「記住阿拉莫。」 We said, "Remember the Alamo."
這與希望無關。 It's not about hope.
是遺憾。 It's about regret.
艾比總是很有創意。 Abby was always creatively minded.
她會和姐妹們一起拍電影。 She would make movies with her sisters.
當然,音樂。 Music, of course.
哦，她有一副美妙的嗓音。 Oh, she had such a beautiful voice.
我真希望能有更多人聽到。 I really wish more people could've heard it.
你是一個作家。 You're a writer.
我知道什麼? Anything I'd know?
這些都不是 None of this.
你在這裡看到的絕望，不是因為缺乏智慧或創造力。 The desperation that you see around here, it's not from a lack of intelligence or creativity.
這是一個多餘的。 It's an excess.
我們不是真正的槍支家庭。 We're not really a gun family.
我們有一些用來射擊目標的步槍，一些用來安全的手槍，還有……-這與你無關嗎?-跟我有什麼關係? We have a few rifles for shooting targets, a couple handguns for safety, and... - And that doesn't concern you? - Why would it concern me?
有個劇作家，安東·契訶夫，他說如果在戲劇的第一幕中有一把槍……我能想到的他的任何一部戲劇裡都沒有槍。 There's this playwright, Anton Chekhov, and he says that if there's a gun in act one of a play... There's no guns in any one of his plays I can think of.
櫻桃園,不。萬尼亞舅舅,不。 Cherry Orchard, no. Uncle Vanya, no.
其實我對他的劇本不是很熟悉。 I'm not actually that familiar with his plays.
我更熟悉他的理論。 Uh, I'm more familiar with his theory.
但這些感受的利害關係並不是假設的。 But the stakes of these feelings aren't hypothetical.
它們都太真實了。 They're all too real.
我是你們的主持人，本·馬納洛維茨，來自美國廣播集團。 I'm your host, Ben Manalowitz, from American Radio Collective.
這是《死白人女孩》。 This is Dead White Girl.
嘿。 Hey.
這很好。 So, this is great.
真的嗎? Really?
是的。 Yeah.
我都快被這個家搞暈了。 I'm, like, dorking out over this family.
他們的家庭就像我的家庭。 Their family's like my family.
太好了。太好了。 Great. Great.
你有什麼筆記嗎? Do you have any notes?
是的。我有幾個。 Yeah. I got a couple.
你不是說你喜歡嗎。 Thought you said you loved it.
你問我有沒有筆記，我有，對吧，菜鳥? You asked if I had notes, and I got notes, okay, first-timer?
好的。好了，好了，你有什麼發現? Okay. All right, all right, what do you got?
好吧，你踩到別人的線了，我們需要乾淨，所以…-是的,沒錯。 Okay, you're stepping on people's lines, - and we need it clean, so... - Yep, yep.
就像你現在做的一樣。不要這樣做。 Just like what you're doing right now. Don't do that.
正確的。 Right.
他們說話的時候不要說話。 Don't talk while they're talking.
只是聽…或者假裝在聽。 Just listen... or pretend to listen.
好的。還有什麼? Okay. What else?
你知道什麼能幫助一些人嗎? And you know what would help some people?
如果你……如果你……如果你做了，比如，一個無聲的笑來慫恿他們。 If you... if you... if you do, like, a silent laugh to egg them on.
你知道，就像…像什麼?我失去了你。 You know, like, um... Like what? I lost you.
喜歡……不，我正在做。 Like... No, I'm doing it.
對的,好吧。 Right, okay.
你接下來要去哪裡?競技? Where are you going to next, the... the rodeo?
是的，我的第一次牛仔競技。 Yep, my first rodeo.
我真的很興奮。 I'm really excited.
顯然，這是一個真實的社會經濟截面。 Apparently, it's a real socioeconomic cross section.
是啊，還有馬，公牛什麼的。 Yeah, and horses and bulls and stuff.
你在做什麼嗎? You're doing it?
你能看出來嗎? Yeah, could you tell?
祝你好運。 Good luck.
好了,本。 All right, Ben.
-你會喜歡這個地方的。-是的。 - You're gonna love this place. - Yeah.
有很多東西可以看，有很多東西可以吸收。 A whole lot to see, lot to take in.
"第四屆年度公牛狂歡牛仔保護。" "Fourth Annual Bull Bash Cowboy Protection."
在德州奧伊斯特克裡克，為鬥牛保護牛仔。——酷。太好了。 Cowboy protection for, uh, bullfighting - in Oyster Creek, Texas. - Cool. Excellent.
還有，你是pitmaster。 And, uh, you're a pitmaster.
是的,先生。 Yes, sir.
你成功的秘訣是什麼? And what is the secret to your success?
時間，更多的時間。 Time and more time.
賓果!——10分! Bingo! - Ten points!
哦,是的! Oh, hell yes!
-本，你會喜歡這個的。——好的。 - Ben, you're gonna love this. - All right.
油炸夾餡麵包。 Deep-fried Twinkies.
本，你得嘗嘗這個。 Ben, you gotta try one of these.
——你好,漂亮。——哦!嗨。 - Hello, beautiful. - Oh! Hi.
能給我來一份，二份，三份，四份，五份油炸夾心麵包嗎? Can I get, uh, one, two, three, four, five deep-fried Twinkies?
能給我們烤一份嗎? Uh, can we get one of those grilled?
這是他媽的好。 It's fucking good.
——該死的好。-是的。 - Fucking good. - Yeah.
保持低調，本。 Just keep a low profile, Ben.
我們會找到他的。毫無疑問。 We'll find our man. No doubt.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
女士們先生們，男孩女孩們，歡迎來到霍利斯頓牛仔競技表演。 Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, welcome to the Holliston Rodeo.
我們要特別向我們的贊助商們問好，Stetson Energy, McGuane Energy, Trailways Energy Company, Rawson Energy, T&B Energy Company, Panhandle Energy, Andrew & Sons Hardware,an Energy Corporation, Anderton Energy Transport, Donahue Energy，以及Quentin Sellers Music Factory，自2018年以來，他們讓夢想成真。 We say a special hello to our sponsors, Stetson Energy, McGuane Energy, Trailways Energy Company, Rawson Energy, the T&B Energy Company, Panhandle Energy, Andrew & Sons Hardware,an Energy Corporation, Anderton Energy Transport, Donahue Energy, and the Quentin Sellers Music Factory, making dreams come true since 2018.
現在，舉著六面美麗的德州旗幟，歡迎我們美麗的騎手。 Now, carrying the six beautiful flags of Texas, welcome our beautiful riders.
好了,本。 All right, Ben.
德克薩斯州的六面國旗——是德克薩斯州所屬的六個國家。-好的。 The six flags of Texas -are the six countries that Texas has belonged to. -Okay.
-你能說出六個人的名字嗎?-美國。 - Can you name all six? - Uh, the United States.
法國，路易斯安那州收購案，西班牙，墨西哥。嗯…嗯,嗯…得克薩斯共和國! Uh, France, Louisiana Purchase, Spain, Mexico. Uh... Um, uh... Republic of Texas!
那是什麼,五個? What's that, five?
不錯,兄弟。不壞。 Not bad, brother. Not bad.
沒有人能得到5分。 Nobody ever gets five.
正確的。 Right.
所以六旗主題公園…完全正確。 So Six Flags, the theme park... Exactly.
-是一家德州公司。——正確的。 - Is a Texas company. - Right.
很有趣。 Very interesting.
現在，女士們先生們，如果你是一個真正的德州人，當這首歌響起時，你知道該怎麼做。 And now, ladies and gentlemen, if you're a real Texan, you know what to do when this song plays.
你剛才是真想唱"深入德州腹地"嗎?——嗯…不。 Did you really just try to Shazam - "Deep in the Heart of Texas"? - Uh... No.
女士們先生們，誰是德州大學的鐵桿粉絲? Now, ladies and gentlemen, who here is a die-hard fan of the University of Texas?
哇! Whoo!
誰是德州理工的粉絲? And who here is a fan of Texas Tech?
好吧，讓我們聽聽雙方的意見。 Okay, let's hear from both sides.
我們能把UT的風扇拿下來嗎? Can we have the UT fan come down?
-祝你好運，夥計。-給他們點顏色瞧瞧，本。 - Good luck, buddy. - Give them hell, Ben.
這是真的嗎?你是事後……你以為我們在開玩笑嗎? Is this for real? Are you seriou... Do you think we're joking?
再找個德州理工的球迷。 And let's get a Texas Tech fan.
好吧，讓我們從德州大學先生開始。 Okay, let's start with Mr. University of Texas.
兒子，你叫什麼名字? Now, what's your name, son?
本Manalowitz。 Ben Manalowitz.
whosit ? What the whosit?
你是做什麼的，孩子? And what do you do, son?
我是一個作家。 I'm a writer.
一個騎士嗎? A rider?
你看起來不像個騎手。 You don't look like a rider.
你騎什麼，孩子? What do you ride, son?
嗯? Huh?
嗯，騎馬有很多種。 Well, there's lots of kinds of riding.
你可以騎馬、駕駛拖拉機。 You can ride horses, steer, tractors.
不。 No.
我不是騎手。我是一個作家。 I'm not a rider. I'm a writer.
我是一個作家。 I'm a writer.
所以，就像，你知道，呃…當……當你看到一本書或一本雜誌時……甚至是你在網上讀到的一篇文章。 So, like, you know, uh... when... when you come across a book or a magazine... or even an article that you read online.
有人……必須認真思考那些詞。我知道作家是什麼，你這個自以為是的混蛋。 Somebody has to... has to actually think about what those words... I know what a writer is, you condescending asshole.
告訴我，莎士比亞，你那麼喜歡德克薩斯大學的什麼? Well, tell me, Shakespeare, what do you like so much about the University of Texas?
我喜歡這是一所公立學校。 Well, I like that it's a state school.
因此，它為當地需要幫助的人提供了經濟機會。 So, it gives financial opportunities to local people who could use the help.
我知道它有一個非常好的電影部門。 And I know that it has a very good film department.
其中一些畢業生包括，我相信，理查德·林克萊特。 Some of the graduates include, I believe, Richard Linklater.
啊哈。好的。 Uh-huh. Okay.
你喜歡德州理工什麼? And what do you like about Texas Tech?
四分衛馬特·哈里斯! Quarterback Matt Harris!
槍了! Guns up!
代表科技! Repping Tech!
♬搖一下，讓它成為♬ ♪ Shake that thang, make that thang ♪
♬一直彎到你覺得它會把那個東西弄壞……♪ ♪ Bend until you think it's gonna break that thang... ♪
別擔心。 Don't worry about it.
-沒人在想。-是的。 - Nobody's thinking about it. - Yeah.
把它從你的腦海中抹去。 Erase it from your mind.
享受。 Enjoy.
當她移動那個東西的時候，那個東西就會被刻上凹槽 ♪ When she moves that thang, grooves that thang ♪
♬隨著音樂的節奏搖擺……♪ ♪ Swing to the rhythm of the groove that thang... ♪
哇!搖晃它,女孩! Whoo! Shake it, girls!
♪沒有人能像她那樣對我♪ ♪ Nobody else does what she does to me ♪
不是你,KC。 Not you, KC.
♬搖一搖那個……♪ ♪ Shake that thang... ♪
他們怎麼……知道如何做同樣的…? How do they all... know how to do the same...?
集體意識。 Collective consciousness.
♬每首歌都是這樣的一個場景 ♪ Every song is such a sight to see ♪
當她移動那個東西的時候，那個東西就會被刻上凹槽 ♪ When she moves that thang, grooves that thang ♪
♬跟著♬的節奏搖擺 ♪ Swing to the rhythm of the groove that thang ♪
♬自己說了♬ ♪ Speaks for itself ♪
♪沒有人能像她那樣對我♪ ♪ Nobody else does what she does to me ♪
♬當她搖晃那個東西的時候……♪ ♪ When she shakes that thang... ♪
Sancholo。 Sancholo.
哇,哇,哇! Whoa, whoa, whoa!
-你要過去嗎?-是的。 - You going over there? - Yeah.
要我的槍嗎? You want my gun?
你帶槍了? You brought a gun?
不是嗎?手機，鑰匙，錢包，槍。 Didn't I? Phone, keys, wallet, gun.
-是的。——沒有。不。 - Yeah. - No. No.
♪沒有人能像她那樣對我♪ ♪ Nobody else does what she does to me ♪
當她搖那東西的時候 ♪ When she shakes that thang ♪
♪像舊紗門一樣搖擺♪ ♪ Swinging like an old screen door ♪
♬天哪，她做了那個……♪ ♪ Lord, she makes that thang... ♪
請問，你是桑切洛嗎? Excuse me, are you Sancholo?
我想跟你說幾句話。 I was hoping to talk to you for a second.
一個警察嗎? You a cop?
不是一個警察。 Not a cop.
警察沒必要說他是警察。 Cop don't have to say he's a cop.
那你為什麼問這個? Then why did you ask?
——對嗎?-因為你在浪費我的時間 - Right? - 'Cause you're wasting my time.
我覺得還是把你的也浪費了吧。 Figured I might as well waste yours.
聽著，我是個記者。 Look, I'm a journalist.
我在做一個報道。 I'm doing a story.
我只是想問你幾個問題。 I was really only hoping to ask you a couple of questions.
-我只是想…-想幹什麼? - I'm just trying to... - Just trying to what?
——該死的殺手!-嘿，泰，放鬆點! - Fucking killer! - Hey, Ty. Relax!
夥計們，夥計們，夥計們。夥計們，夥計們，夥計們。 Guys, guys, guys, guys. Guys, guys, guys, guys, guys.
對他寬容點。他剛失去了妹妹。 Go easy on him. He just lost his sister.
德州最漂亮的女孩。 Most beautiful girl in Texas.
我聽說你在她死的派對上。 So what I heard was that you were at the party where she died.
幸運的我。 Lucky me.
她在我肩膀上嚥下最後一口氣。 She took her last breath on my shoulder.
我叫Ben Manalowitz。 My name is Ben Manalowitz.
我在做一個關於艾柏林的播客。 I'm doing a podcast about Abilene.
我很想聽聽你的說法。 I would love to hear your side of the story.
嘿。 Hey.
這裡有個普通的喬·羅根。 We got a regular Joe Rogan here.
喬·羅根遇見了塞斯·羅根。 Joe Rogan meets Seth Rogen.
只有你。 Just you.
我上中學的時候，我媽不讓我讀《哈利·波特》因為教會的東西。 When I was in middle school, my mom wouldn't let me read Harry Potter because of church stuff.
所以我每天晚上都給艾比打電話。 So I would call Abby every night.
她會讀給我聽。 She would read it to me.
我不知道她為什麼關心我。 I don't know what made her care about me.
我想，「為什麼是我? I was like, "Why me?
我只是個輟學的毒販" I'm just an effing dropout drug dealer."
她會說:「心看得見心。」 She'd say, "Heart sees heart."
正確的。 Right.
她以前每天都用那部傻逼小剃刀手機給我發這條短信。 She used to text that to me every day on that dumbass little Razr phone.
-你還記得嗎?-是的。 - You remember those? - Yeah.
5-4-5。 5-4-5.
心看到的心。 Heart sees heart.
這就像是她的小密碼。 It was, like, her little code.
我很想她。 I miss her so much.
你告訴我她的最後一口氣都在你肩上。 You told me that her last breath was on your shoulder.
還有人告訴我是你在她死的地方辦的派對。 And other people told me that you threw the party where she died.
我都不在場。 I wasn't even there.
好的。 Okay.
你在哪裡? Where were you?
看看日期。 Look at the date.
這是在哪裡? Where is this?
塔爾薩。我去見阿黛爾了。 Tulsa. I went to see Adele.
我和我侄女在那裡。 I was there with my niece.
她……她愛她。 She... She loves her.
阿黛爾? Adele?
很顯然，如果你把這事告訴別人，我就得殺了你。 Obviously, I'm gonna have to kill you if you tell anyone about that.
不,這是……是的。 No, it's... Yeah.
我是一個迷。 I'm a fan.
所以…你有不在場證明，但你想讓人們認為是你殺了她? So... you have an alibi, but you want people to think you killed her?
這些該死的販毒集團。 These fucking cartels, man.
他們很快就會控制一切。 They're gonna control everything pretty soon.
-你們是販毒集團。——不,先生。 - You're the cartels. - No, sir.
我很想擁有她，但我不知道。 It kills me to claim her, but I don't know.
如果他們不認為我殺了人，那我可能就得殺了人……來證明我自己。 If they don't actually think I killed someone, then I might have to kill someone... to prove myself.
事情不是這樣的，對吧? That's not really how it works, is it?
我是這麼聽說的。 It's what I heard.
繼續，斯諾普斯，這不是真的 Go on Snopes. It's not a real thing.
你說什麼? Excuse me?
讓我把這些拼湊起來。她吸毒過量……他媽的?我們說的可是艾比，好嗎? So, let me piece this together. She OD'd... The fuck? This is Abby we're talking about here, okay?
她不願碰那些東西。 She wouldn't touch the stuff.
她連止痛藥都不碰。 Girl wouldn't touch an Advil.
聽著，他們在離派對兩英里半的地方找到了她，在一個所有死亡事件發生的地方叫做"事後派對" Listen, they found her two and a half miles from the party, at a spot where all the deaths happen called "the Afterparty."
你不能就這麼一個人走掉。 You don't just wander off like that by yourself.
有人帶你去那裡。 Someone takes you there.
這不是吸毒過量。 This was no OD.
沒有該死的方法。 No fucking way.
誰會去這些派對? Who goes to these parties?
每一個人。 Everybody.
——每個人都去。沒有人去了。-是的。 - Everybody goes. Nobody went. - Yeah.
-每次都是同一群人?——是的。 - Same people every time? - Yes.
下一班是什麼時候? When's the next one?
每當我想要的。 Whenever I want.
你的支持率是11%，兄弟。 You're at 11%, bro.
你可能想切換到低功耗模式。 You might want to switch to low power mode.
謝謝你！ Thank you.
喂? Hello?
如果她是被謀殺的呢? What if she was murdered?
什麼? What?
我們想都沒想就否定了第一個理論。 We dismissed the first theory presented without even thinking about it.
如果我們不把他們當回事呢? What if we're not taking them seriously?
等等，你是說是墨西哥毒販干的嗎? Wait, so are you saying the Mexican drug dealer did it?
絕對不是。 Definitely not that.
但這是第一個理論。 But that was the first theory presented.
我只是確定不是因為這個。 I'm just sure it wasn't that.
你為什麼這麼肯定? Why are you so sure?
的直覺。 Gut.
——腸道?-聽著，我知道我們喜歡以前的關係。 - Gut? - Look, I know we liked what we had before.
關於美國，幻想，遺憾以及復仇的意義。 Something about America and fantasy and regret and the meaning of vengeance.
不,不。這個…這是更好的。 No, no. This... this is better.
這只會越來越大。 This just keeps getting bigger and bigger.
對吧? Right?
好的。 Okay.
保持安全。 Stay safe.
的故事。 Get the story.
不是這個順序。 Not in that order.
不。這個順序。 No. In that order.
你在看什麼? What are you watching?
阿比林的視頻。 Um, videos of Abilene.
你看到我的手機了嗎? Do you see my phone?
它是如何破裂的。 How it's, like, cracked.
是的。 Yeah.
它讓我看起來像我的感覺。 It makes me look the way that I feel.
嗯… Um...
我在哪兒見過你? Where do I know you from?
馬術競技會。 Rodeo.
這是長角牛的風扇。 It's the Longhorns fan.
的確是這樣，邁克。確實是。 Indeed it is, Mike. Indeed it is.
事實上，那是個誤會。 Actually, that was a misunderstanding.
我很抱歉。我甚至不是一個足球迷。 I'm sorry. I'm not even a football fan.
我只是想融入他們。 Um, I was just trying to fit in.
你融入這裡的方式真有趣。 Funny way to fit in around here.
點。 Point taken.
我不知道還會有另一支隊伍。 I didn't know there was gonna be another team.
我在為德州加油。 I was cheering for Texas.
嗯…我想問你幾個關於艾比林·肖之死的問題。 Um... I'd love to ask you a couple questions about the death of Abilene Shaw.
——吸毒過量。——事故。 - OD'd. - Accident.
我知道那是官方報告。 I know that was the official report.
我在想，你能和她死的那晚在場的人談談嗎? I was wondering, were you able to talk to anyone who was there the night she died?
你去過抽水千斤頂旁邊的派對嗎? You ever go to a party out by the pump jacks?
大家都去了，卻沒人。 Everybody goes and nobody was there.
我不在那裡。 I wasn't there.
你為什麼這麼感興趣? Why are you so interested anyway?
你是她的男朋友嗎? You her, uh, boyfriend or something?
我們一起出去玩了。 Uh, we hung out.
是的。是的，我是她的男朋友。 Yeah. Yeah, I was her boyfriend.
你知道，90%的情況下都是男朋友干的。 Well, you know, 90% of the time it's the boyfriend who did it.
好吧,我不是……我不是她的男朋友。 Okay, I wasn't... I wasn't really her boyfriend.
他說的有點前後矛盾了。 His story's starting to sound a little inconsistent.
瑞士奶酪。 Swiss cheese.
是啊，我並不想在這裡製造任何麻煩。 Yeah, um, I'm not trying to cause any problems here.
我只是想幫助這個家庭。 I'm really just trying to help the family.
反正這也不是我們的管轄範圍。 You know, this isn't even our jurisdiction anyways.
派對在市區外舉行。 Party happened outside city limits.
-嗯-那是縣不是市 - Mm. - That's county, not city.
——縣治安官。——警長會談。 - County sheriff. - Sheriff'll talk.
警長是一個政治家。 Sheriff's a politician.
這不是事實嗎? Ain't that a fact.
我很想幫你，孩子，但我們的政策是不能對我們的程序或案件發表評論。 I'd love to help you, son, but our policy is we can't comment on our process or cases.
我當時在為一個能被數百萬人聽到的播客採訪人。 Well, I was interviewing people for a podcast that could be heard by millions of people.
但我想那是不可能的。 But I guess that's not a possibility.
這些是羥考酮棒。 These are oxy sticks.
看到這些藥是怎麼排列的了嗎? See how the pills are squared off?
這樣，他們就可以把它們裝在箱子裡，一直裝到角落裡，而不會浪費任何空間。——嗯。 That way, they can pack 'em in boxes to the corners - without wasting any space. - Mm-hmm.
這就是這個行業的規模。 That's how big this business is.
我們不知道是誰運的。 We don't know who's shipping it.
我們只知道他們沿著州際公路沿著邊界來了。 All we know is they're coming along the interstate right along the border.
那條路正好經過派對所在的油田。 And that route cuts right by the oil field where the party was.
這是縣裡最常見的吸毒過量地點。 The most common overdose spot in the county.
我們叫它「餘興派對」。 We call it "the Afterparty."
很普通的事情，說起來很難過。 Very common thing, sad to say.
這是什麼? What's this right here?
看起來有兩對指紋。 Looks like two pairs of prints.
牛仔靴。 Cowboy boots.
發出全境通告，發現兩個穿著牛仔靴的人。 Calling out an APB to find two men wearing cowboy boots.
——好的。-搞什麼鬼? - Okay. - What the fuck?
下台。 Stand down.
兒子，我希望你一切都好，真的。 Son, I wish you well, I really do.
上帝保佑你的小心臟，但這都不是我們的管轄範圍。 And bless your little heart, but this ain't even our jurisdiction, though.
——不是嗎?——不,先生。 - It's not? - No, sir.
這是在高速公路上。 This was along the highway.
你想跟公路巡警談談。 You want to talk to highway patrol.
那不就像一個警長吹著他的熱風把你直接吹進我的辦公室嗎。 Well, ain't that just like a sheriff to puff his hot air and blow you straight into my office.
如果有人在29號公路上的派對上吸毒過量，我很抱歉，但我們還有事要做。 If there's a drug overdose at a party in some fucking field off 29, I'm sorry, but we got shit to do.
我們不是一群呆呆地盯著大黃蜂的陸軍士兵。 We're not a bunch of Army rejects just gazing at the Rio Grande.
-我從沒這麼說過。-我不是在說我們 - I never said that you were. - I wasn't talking about us.
高速公路巡警就是這麼跟你說的嗎? Oh, is that what they told you over at highway patrol?
你可以去告訴小布朗和其他那些光榮的收費員如果他們多花點時間用真槍少用點雷達槍， Well, you can go tell Junior Brown and the rest of them glorified meter maids that if they spent more time with their real guns and less with their radar guns,
我們也許就不用在跨佩科斯大街上到處追那個該死的德州黑幫了! we might not have to chase the goddamn Texas syndicate up and down the Trans-Pecos!
明白了嗎? Got it?
是的。如果我能找到一種自然的方式，在與他們的對話中加入這些內容，我就會這麼做。 Yes. If I find a natural way to work that into the conversation with them, I will do that.
——DRT。——DRT。 - DRT. - DRT.
——DRT。-死在那裡。 - DRT. - Dead right there.
執法部門一點幫助都沒有。 Law enforcement was no help at all.
你在那裡學到了很多，不是嗎? You're learning a lot down there, aren't you?
謀殺或服藥過量發生在很多這樣的事情發生的地方。 The murder or overdose happened where a lot of these things happen.
在四個重疊司法管轄區的交匯處。 At the intersection of four overlapping jurisdictions.
所以他們都踢向對方。 So they all kicked it to each other.
幾率有多大? What are the odds?
好了，我要和大家討論一下這個問題，調整一下拼字板，然後我要去找羅賓聽聽她的想法。 Okay, I'm gonna kick this around with the team for a little bit, shake up the Boggle board, and then I'm gonna hit up Robin to get her thoughts.
好的。謝謝,埃路易斯。謝謝,每一個人。 All right. Thanks, Eloise. Thanks, everybody.
——再見,本。——再見,本。 - Bye, Ben. - Bye, Ben.
你可能都不看這個了，但我在德州的家裡，我很無聊。 Um, you're probably not even gonna watch this, but I'm back home in Texas, and I'm bored.
這是我弟弟，梅森。 This is my little brother, Mason.
他睡在我的地板上，因為他怕鬼。 He sleeps on my floor because he's afraid of ghosts.
我想告訴他世上沒有鬼，但無所謂。 And I tried to tell him there's no such thing as ghosts, but whatever.
這樣他就能和我在一起。 It keeps him close to me.
所以我想在這裡也不全是壞事。 So I guess it's not all bad being here.
這是,嗯……嗯,就是這樣。 That's, um... Well, that's it.
梅森。 Mason.
是的,先生? Yes, sir?
只是說聲晚安。 Just saying good night.
你把我叫醒就為了道聲晚安? You woke me up just to say good night?
是的,先生。 Yes, sir.
我非常愛你。 I love you mucho.
集體意識。 Collective consciousness.
如果每個人都相信同一件事… If everyone believes the same thing...
但在沒有任何事實支持的情況下，我們是聽從直覺，還是無視它? but without any facts to support it, do we listen to that intuition or dismiss it?
過量? An overdose?
她這輩子連止痛藥都沒吃過。 Girl never took so much as an Advil in her life.
她連止痛藥都沒碰過。 She never touched so much as an Advil.
你去過抽水千斤頂旁邊的派對嗎? You ever go to a party out by the pump jacks?
每個人都是。沒有人去了。 Everybody goes. Nobody went.
我不在那裡。 I wasn't there.
問題是你得到了所有這些明亮的，有創意的燈，卻沒有地方插入他們的能量。 The problem is you get all these bright, creative lights and nowhere to plug in their energy.
所以它被引向陰謀論，毒品和暴力。 And so it gets channeled into conspiracy theories and drugs and violence.
我來這裡是想知道為什麼悲傷的人會選擇相信一個神話。 I came here to find out why people in grief would choose to believe a myth.
我不知道這一切之間有什麼聯繫，但你肯定知道。 I don't know shit about how this all connects, but you bet your ass it does.
ms - 13 ?那條線嗎? MS-13? La Linea?
是的，我對La Linea很熟悉。 Yeah, I'm familiar with La Linea.
他們去年殺害了41名記者。 They actually murdered 41 journalists last year.
哦，他們也做過壞事。 Oh, they've done bad things, too.
但現在我發現自己在想，這種直覺中蘊含了多少真理。 But now I find myself wondering how much truth might be embedded in that intuition.
你不會碰巧知道她的手機密碼吧? You don't happen to know her phone password, do you?
把它傳給了全州所有的極客小隊。 Took it to every Geek Squad in the state.
這是不可能破解的。 It's impossible to crack.
-這不是我們。-你找錯部門了。 - This ain't us. - You got the wrong department.
——公路巡警。邁克和丹。——邊境巡邏。 - Highway patrol. -Mike and Dan. - Border patrol.
治安部門。-你想去縣裡。 - Sheriff's department. - You want county.
在德州，一切都更大，包括你的期望和現實。 Everything's bigger in Texas, including your expectations and its reality.
我是主持人本·馬納洛維茨，這位是來自美國廣播集團的阿比林。 I'm your host, Ben Manalowitz, and from American Radio Collective, this is Abilene.
嘿。 Hey.
猜猜是誰打來的。 Guess who's on the line.
嘿。這是羅賓。 Hey. It's Robin.
我製作「美國時刻」。 I produce American Moment.
是的。我知道你是誰。 Yeah. I-I know who you are.
這是沒辦法,嗯……很高興見到你，羅賓。 It's-it's, um... It's great to meet you, Robin.
-你好嗎?-很高興和你聊天。 - How are you? - Great to talk to you.
我喜歡你對死白人女孩的處理。 I love what you're doing with Dead White Girl.
謝謝你！非常感謝。 Thank you. Thank you so much.
埃洛伊絲說我們會把這個故事的一部分作為《美國時刻》的一個環節，這將有助於推廣你的系列節目。 Eloise pitched that we use some of the story as a segment on American Moment, and that would help promote your series.
哇。這樣它就會上美國時刻了。 Wow. So it'd be on American Moment.
你得到的一切都很棒。 Everything you're getting is great.
劇中的角色非常棒。 The characters are amazing.
是的。不，我是說，角色太棒了。 Yeah. No, I mean, the characters are unbelievable.
泰就是個爆竹。 Ty is just a total firecracker.
奶奶應該有自己的節目。 And Granny deserves her own show.
然後艾柏林，我是說…越多人聽到她的聲音，就會越多人愛上她。 And then Abilene, I mean... The more people hear her voice, the more they're gonna fall in love with her.
所以如果你覺得你能把手頭的東西加強，我們可以把它放到週日的那集。 So if you think you can tighten up what you have, we can work it into Sunday's episode.
是的。我…絕對的。 Yeah. I... Absolutely.
我很樂意。 I'd love to.
哇。是的。是的，我能做到。 Wow. Yeah. Yeah, I can do that.
我能問問你在吃什麼嗎? Can I ask what you're eating?
這是，嗯，玉米餅。 This is, um, Frito pie.
聽起來太好了。 It's great sound.
那是什麼? What is that?
炸玉米餅就是把一袋炸玉米餅切開然後倒辣椒進去。 Uh, Frito pie is when they cut open a bag of Fritos and they pour chili in it.
然後用叉子從袋子裡拿出來吃。 Then you eat it out of the bag with a fork.
啊。這是噁心。 Ugh. That is disgusting.
是的，以一種好的方式。 Yeah, in a good way.
本，你在聽嗎? Ben, are you there?
本，我跟丟你了嗎? Ben, did I lose you?
你怎麼了，孩子? What happened to you, son?
我的普銳斯爆炸。 My Prius exploded.
嗯哼。 Mm-hmm.
哦,謝天謝地。你沒事吧? Oh, thank heavens. Are you all right?
嘿。 Hey.
-是的。-看啊 - Yeah. - Oh, look at that.
——哦,嘿。-發生了什麼事? - Oh, hey. - What happened?
-我很好。-他的車爆炸了，媽媽! - I'm fine. - His car blew up, Mom!
哦，這太操蛋了!這個…克萊頓-泰勒!——對不起。 Oh, it's so fucked up! This... - Tyler Clayton! - Sorry.
你沒事，我們太感激了。 We're just so grateful you're all right.
哦,我的上帝。如果你開的是一輛有汽油什麼的真車呢? Oh, my God. What if you were driving a real car with gas and stuff?
是的。 Yeah.
本，這是我們快成功的信號。 Ben, this is a message that we're getting close.
或者是孩子們無緣無故和坦納瑞特鬼混。 Or it's kids fucking around for no reason with Tannerite.
我不敢相信你們都來了。 I can't believe you're all here.
那我們還能在哪裡? Well, where else would we be?
來吧。姑娘們在車裡等著呢。 Come on. The girls are waiting in the car.
我們走吧。 Let's go.
-嘿，你一瘸一拐的嗎?——沒有。 - Hey, are you limping? - No.
你確定嗎? You sure about that?
-來吧，媽媽。-是的。他的臉看起來很好。 - Come on, Mama. - Yeah. His face looks all right.
-他會沒事的-我見過更糟的 - He's gonna be all right. - Yeah, I seen worse.
來吧,朋友。 Come on, buddy.
-一切都好嗎?——太好了。 - How is everything? - So good.
這是我們的朋友本。 This is our friend Ben.
這是他第一次來Whataburger。 And this is his first time at Whataburger.
-我們乾一杯吧。——謝謝。 - Let's have a toast. - Thank you.
——本。-來吧，敬本。——本。 - To Ben. -Come on, to Ben. - To Ben.
——Whataburger Whataburger,。-敬一杯美味的奶昔。 - Whataburger, Whataburger. - To a good milkshake.
——Whoopah。——在那裡。 - Whoopah. - Over there.
謝謝。 Thanks.
你覺得怎麼樣? Well, what do you think?
我喜歡這個。 I love this.
你會怎麼做? You do?
它總是在那裡。 And it's always right there.
-對不起，媽媽。——哦。 - Excuse me, Mama. - Ooh.
這是德州的特色。 It's a Texas thing.
你不應該這麼做，但你應該這麼做。 You're not supposed to do it, but you're supposed to do it.
你應該帶上你的幸運數字，但我們認為每個數字對某人來說都是幸運的，所以我們把所有的數字都帶上。 You're supposed to take your lucky number, but we figure every number's lucky to somebody, so we take all of 'em.
我不會告訴邁克和丹的 I won't tell Mike and Dan.
好像他們會做任何事一樣。 Like they'd do anything.
他們會說那是個意外。 They'd say it was an accident.
今晚聚會。 Party tonight.
-哦，著裝要求是什麼?——啊。 - Oh, what's the dress code? - Ugh.
野馬和帶扣的兔子。 Broncos and buckle bunnies.
啊。你知道的，現在他們真的是在把它和主題聯繫在一起。 Ugh. You know, they're seriously phoning it in with the themes nowadays.
你今晚想來嗎? You want to come tonight?
你可以從我的衣櫥裡借點東西。 You can borrow something from my closet.
你可以走了嗎? You're okay to go?
這不會激起你太多的感情嗎? It doesn't stir up too many feelings for you?
你要繼續生活。 You gotta keep living life.
就像葉卡捷琳娜大帝說的:「你必須回到馬的下面。」 Like Catherine the Great said, "You gotta get right back under the horse."
泰勒克萊頓。——什麼? Tyler Clayton. - What?
我聽了你推薦的歷史播客。 I-I listened to that history podcast you recommended.
我有個問題要問你。 I've got a question for you.
你在德州有家人嗎? Have you got family in Texas?
不。 No.
你現在所做的。 You do now.
-對吧，各位?——是的,女士。 - Isn't that right, everybody? - Yes, ma'am.
小心你許的願，本。 Careful what you wish for, Ben.
1秒。 One second.
誰有蜜糖的東西在那邊? Who's got a honey thing over there?
-我這裡有一些——誰?嗯,嗯,嗯。 - Um, I got some right here. - Anybody? Mmm, mmm, mmm.
-嗨。有什麼事嗎?-嗨。 - Hey. What's up? - Hey.
你的車爆炸了? Your car blew up?
你還好嗎? Are you okay?
是的。是的。 Yeah. Yes.
我是說，我希望我能得到那種沒人能得到的額外租賃保險，但我沒事。 I mean, I wish I got that extra rental insurance that no one ever gets, but I'm fine.
很好。聽著，我寫完了，大家都很喜歡。 Good. Well, listen, I finished it, and everyone loves it.
謝謝。「完成」是什麼意思? Thanks. What do you mean "finished it"?
你現在很危險，而且你已經得到了你需要的一切。 You're clearly in danger, and you've already got everything you need.
我沒有破案。 Well, I didn't solve the murder.
這樣比較好。 It's better this way.
一個沒有解決方案的曖昧結局。 You know, an ambiguous ending without resolution.
這是……這就是這樣一個故事的秘密武器。 That's... that's the secret weapon with a story like this.
它折磨著你。 It gnaws at you.
它永遠縈繞在你心頭。 It haunts you forever.
你從不放手。 You never let it go.
不，還有更多，埃洛伊塞 No, there's more to it, Eloise.
我就快成功了。 I-I'm getting so close.
雖然我們很想看到你因為一則新聞而被炸飛…——不,不。 As much as we'd love to see you - blown up for a story... - No, no.
我的良心告訴我，我必須選擇一個人，而不是一個故事。 My conscience tells me I have to choose a person over a story.
不。 No.
不,不。 No, no.
否則，就得花上兩年的時間去看心理醫生，然後…在我的計劃中我負擔不起。 Otherwise, it would take, like, two years of therapy to justify it, and... I can't afford that on my plan.
聽著，你會因此成名的。 Look, you're gonna be huge from this.
好嗎? Okay?
回家。 Come home.
——你還記得嗎?——嘿,你。 - You remember? - Hey, you.
嘿。很抱歉。 Hey. Sorry about that.
是誰呢? Who was that?
朋友 Friend.
是Equinox Girl Cute嗎? Was it Equinox Girl Cute?
還是娜塔莉·班布爾? Or was it Natalie Bumble?
是我的播客製作人打來的。 Uh, it was, uh, my podcast producer.
一切都在正軌上。 Uh, and everything's on track.
你這麼問真是太貼心了。 You're very sweet to ask.
我非常愛你。 I love you mucho.
我們很幸運你找到了艾柏林。 We're so lucky you found Abilene.
我真不知道她看上我哪點了。 I really don't know what she saw in me.
我做的事。 I do.
我明白了。我完全理解。 I get it. I totally get it.
心見心。——哦。 - Heart sees heart. - Oh.
我來這裡和艾比在一起的時候…「瘋狂的德州家庭」，對吧? You know, when I came down here to spend time with Abby's... "Crazy Texan family," right?
是的。 Yeah.
我從沒想過會是這樣。 Uh, I never thought it would be like this.
人們會給你驚喜。 People can surprise you.
是的。 Yeah.
像阿比林。 Like Abilene.
我是說，她充滿了驚喜。 I mean, she was full of surprises.
——像阿比林。——嗯。 - Like Abilene. - Mm-hmm.
名聲很好，但是個癮君子。 Great reputation, but a huge pill-popper.
什麼? What?
你剛才說什麼? What'd you just say?
把這個放到你的播客裡吧。 Mm. Put that in your podcast, maybe.
你從哪兒聽來的? Where'd you hear that?
女孩們告訴我的。 The girls told me.
泰讓我們什麼都別說。 Ty told us not to say anything.
你是認真的嗎? Are you fucking serious?
我以為如果你知道她在吸毒就不會跟我這麼做了。 I thought you wouldn't do this with me if you knew that she was using.
你認為呢? You think?
毒品是阿比林做的事。 Drugs was something Abilene did.
她不是這樣的人。 It's not who she was.
但這就是她的死因，我們也在調查。 But it is how she died, which is what we were investigating.
我以為事情不止如此。 I thought there was more to this.
我以為我們能互相瞭解一下，那就太好了。 I thought that you and I would get to know each other, and that would be cool.
我…也許這是悲傷過程的一部分。 I... Maybe it was part of the grieving process.
否認? Denial?
這不是悲傷十二步法之一嗎? Isn't that one of the 12 steps of grief?
這是悲傷的五個階段，12步恢復，但我知道這裡的每個人都更熟悉後者。 It's five stages of grief, 12 steps to recovery, but I understand that everyone here is more familiar with the latter.
它是複雜的。 It's complicated.
不是。其實很簡單。 It's not. It's actually very simple.
這裡的一切其實都很簡單，也許這就是我花了這麼長時間才理解它的原因。 Everything here is actually really simple, and maybe that's why it took me so long to understand it.
我聽從了自己的內心，這就是我們在這裡所做的。 Well, I was following my heart, and that's what we do around here.
跟隨自己的心。 You follow your heart.
是的。 Yeah.
也許是時候看看周圍問問自己這對你有什麼好處了。 Well, maybe it's time to look around and ask yourselves how that's working out for you.
也許你應該改變一下，跟著你的大腦走。 Maybe you should try following your brain for a change.
因為當你跟隨自己的內心，地球是平的，氣候變化是一個騙局，疫苗含有微芯片，墨西哥毒販殺了你的妹妹。 Because when you follow your heart, the Earth is flat, climate change is a hoax, vaccines contain microchips, and Mexican drug dealers killed your sister.
你們編造了這些瘋狂的故事來解釋為什麼你們的生活如此糟糕因為真相太可怕了，你們不敢面對，那就是你們自己造成的。 You invent these insane fucking narratives to explain why your lives are such shit shows because the truth is too scary for you to face, which is that you did it to yourselves.
你知道我老家的人是怎麼說你們的嗎? Do you know what people say about you guys where I'm from?
-讓我猜猜。壞事。——不。更糟。 - Let me guess. Bad things. - No. Worse.
我們說好事 We say good things.
「我們本應該認真對待它們，但我們卻認真對待它們。」 "We took them seriously when we should've taken them literally."
你都沒有。 You're neither.
你們不是認真的人。 You're not serious people.
也許現在是你們認真對待我們的時候了因為我的家鄉很有趣。 And maybe it's time for you all to take us seriously and literally because where I'm from is fun and interesting.
這裡的人豐富多樣，而你的小鎮是這樣的! And the people are rich and diverse, and, meanwhile, your town looks like this!
祝福你的心。 Bless your heart.
我知道那是什麼意思。 Oh, and I know what that means.
所以你知道嗎?祝福你的心。 So you know what? Bless your heart.
祝福你的心。祝福你們所有人。 Bless your heart. Bless all your hearts.
你們所有的心都可以去祝福他們自己。 All your hearts can go bless themselves.
你憑什麼跟我們說話? Who are you to talk to us?
我還得拉你去她的葬禮! I had to drag you to her fucking funeral!
你是誰? Who are you?
如果你的車在布魯克林爆炸，有人會…有人來幫你嗎? If your car would've blown up in Brooklyn, would anyone... Anyone come to help you?
首先，我在布魯克林根本不需要車。 First of all, I wouldn't have needed a car in Brooklyn.
第二，就算我有一個，我也不知道會被誰炸飛。 Second, if I had one, I doubt it would've been blown up by God knows who.
我真不明白你們這些人。 I don't understand you people.
「你們這些人」是一種微攻擊。 "You people" is a microaggression.
我的歉意。你們。 My apologies. Y'all.
「你們」是一種文化挪用。 "Y'all" is a cultural appropriation.
巴黎……你指責別人挪用文化就是文化挪用。 Paris... you accusing someone of cultural appropriation is cultural appropriation.
你為什麼不照顧她? Why wouldn't you look after her?
去看看她? Check in on her?
你不會為她做任何事的，對吧? You wouldn't do anything for her, would you?
這是正確的。我不會。 That's right. I wouldn't.
我和不同的人在一起，我以為她也是，因為我生活在現實世界，每個人都是這樣的。 I was hooking up with different people, and I assumed she was, too, because I live in the real world, and that's what everybody does.
你打電話的時候我就想告訴你了。 I tried to tell you this when you called.
她不是我女朋友。 She wasn't my girlfriend.
她只是我手機裡的一個女孩。 She was just a girl in my phone.
你剛打過架。 Now you've been in a fight.
我不知道整個故事……但生活是複雜的。 I don't know the whole story... but life is complicated.
即使是在這裡，如果你相信的話。 Even around here, if you can believe that.
我來告訴你我的想法。 I'll tell you what I think.
我認為人們不會無緣無故地吸毒。 I think people don't do drugs for no reason.
他們吸毒是因為他們很痛苦。 They do drugs because they're in pain.
疼痛像…比如關心一個幾乎不知道你名字的人。 Pain like... like maybe caring for someone who hardly knows your name.
所以，我不知道，本。 So, I don't know, Ben.
但如果你還在為發生的事找替罪羊你可能不需要大老遠來。 But if you're still looking for someone to blame for what happened... you may not have needed to come all this way.
祝福你的心。 Bless your heart.
你是對的，埃洛伊塞。 You were right, Eloise.
我就是故事。 I was the story.
一個自戀的萬事通以為他會明白美國的意義，結果他只知道自己有多空虛。 A self-absorbed know-it-all thinks he's gonna figure out the meaning of America, and all he learns is how empty he is.
我是那個活在神話中的人。 I was the one living a myth.
他們說你會為你沒做的事而後悔。 They say you regret the things you don't do.
我沒有愛。 I didn't love.
我沒有故事。 I have no story.
我想這就是故事的情節。 I guess that's the story.
我就是故事，這故事糟透了。 I am the story, and the story sucks.
這個故事沒什麼。 The story is nothing.
我回家。 I'm coming home.
我很害怕。 I'm scared.
你在怕什麼? What are you scared of?
鬼。 Ghosts.
鬼魂並不真實。 Ghosts aren't real.
如果它們不是真的，為什麼每個人都知道它們是什麼? If they're not real, how come everyone knows what they are?
它們作為一個想法是真實的，但它們不是真實的。 They're real as an idea, but they're not real, real.
這就是鬼魂的可怕之處，他們不是真的。 That's what's scary about ghosts, that they aren't real.
如果鬼魂是真的，他們一點也不可怕，對吧? If ghosts were real, they wouldn't be scary at all, right?
我們只是微笑著說，「嗨，幽靈們。」 We would just smile and say, "Hi, ghosts."
嗨,鬼魂。 Hi, ghosts.
嗨,鬼。 Hi, ghost.
那不是很酷嗎? Wouldn't that be cool?
如果某個人已經不在了，他們身上的一些東西有時還會讓你感到驚訝? If when someone wasn't there anymore, there was still a little piece of them that could surprise you sometimes?
是的。 Yeah.
但是沒有，什麼都沒有。 But there's not, there's nothing.
這就是鬼的可怕之處。 And that's what's scary about ghosts.
感覺自己還活著的那一小部分根本就不存在了。 That the little piece of someone that feels like it might still be there isn't there at all.
你感覺好點了嗎? Do you feel better?
不。 No.
我也不。 Me neither.
謝謝你的傾聽。 Thanks for listening.
我明天就要走了，梅森。 I'm leaving tomorrow, Mason.
我非常愛你。 I love you mucho.
1-4-3-5。 1-4-3-5.
什麼? What?
1-4-3-5。 1-4-3-5.
這是艾比以前對我說的話。 It's what Abby used to say to me.
她常說"我很愛你" She used to say, "I love you mucho,"
但後來她把它縮短了。 but then she shortened it.
所以它有點像一個密碼，因為那是「我愛你很多」裡字母的數量。 So it was kind of like a secret code 'cause that's the number of letters in "I love you mucho."
1-4-3-5。 1-4-3-5.
喂? Hello?
這是美麗的。 This is beautiful.
是什麼? What is?
你剛才錄的。 What you just recorded.
你最後一塊。 Your concluding piece.
這是我們一開始就說好的。 It's what we talked about from the beginning.
斷開,神話……嗯，故事總是私人的，但是…這是你的。 It's disconnection, myth... Uh, stories are always personal, but... this is you.
你知道，這很適合你。 You know, it's so you.
這是一種……每一個人。 It's kind of... everyone.
你還沒鎖門，對吧? You didn't lock that yet, did you?
不，明天早上才去。 No, not till the morning.
如果你想看看，就在服務器上。 It's on the server if you want to check it out.
太好了,太好了。今晚千萬別碰它。 Great, great. Uh, just-just don't touch it tonight.
還有,呃…這不是100%。 There's, uh... It's not 100%.
我要補充一點。 There's a tiny piece I'm gonna add.
不，別碰它。太棒了。 No, don't touch it. It's great.
你只會把事情搞砸。不喜歡。 You're only gonna fuck it up. Don't.
你現在在哪裡? Where are you right now?
我在優步上。 Uh, I'm in an Uber.
不管怎樣，幹得好。 Well, anyway, good job.
人們會喜歡這個的。 People are gonna love this.
我不知道你還有這個本事。 I didn't know you had it in you.
或許我是這麼做的。 Or maybe I did.
心見心，對吧? Heart sees heart, right?
好吧,好吧。 Okay, all right.
好吧，等到明天早上，好嗎?好吧,再見。 All right, just wait till the morning, okay? Okay, bye.
♪我不會是你的選擇♪ ♪ I won't be your chosen one ♪
♪我只是你的火♪ ♪ I'll just be your fire ♪
♬我不會成為你的愛子 ♪ I won't be your favored son ♪
♪我只是你想要的♪ ♪ I'll just be what you desire ♪
♪我不會是你的超人 ♪ I won't be your superman ♪
♪但我將是你的恐懼♪ ♪ But I'll be your fear ♪
♪我不會是你的應許之地♪ ♪ I won't be your promised land ♪
♪我只是你聽到的那個聲音♪ ♪ I'll just be the voice you hear ♪
♬哦，開槍了，還是跑開藏起來吧 ♪ Ooh, shot, better run and hide ♪
♪哦，中槍了，有一隻邪惡的眼睛…♪ ♪ Ooh, shot, got an evil eye... ♪
-別走開。——是的,先生。 - Don't go anywhere. - Yes, sir.
♬因為，哦，中槍了，我有一隻邪惡的眼睛，是的♬ ♪ 'Cause, ooh, shot, got an evil eye, yeah ♪
看他! Look at him!
他媽的是的。德州理工煙火，賤人。 Fuck yeah. Texas Tech fireworks, bitch.
紅色和黑色，寶貝。 Red and black, baby.
你在逗我嗎? Are you shitting me?
我告訴過你黑煙火不會出現的，你個混蛋。 I told you black fireworks ain't gonna show, you jackass.
我能看見他們。 I can see 'em.
哦。嘿。 Oh. Hey.
這是長角牛的風扇。 It's the Longhorns fan.
你的車怎麼樣了，夥計? How's your car, man?
你喜歡我們的做法嗎? You like what we did to it?
是關於足球的嗎? That was about football?
耶穌基督。 Jesus Christ.
你他媽在這裡幹什麼? What the fuck are you doing here?
我收到了邀請。 I got an invite.
-你穿的是我的衣服-是的。 - Oh, you're wearing my shit. - Yeah.
他媽的什麼? What the fuck?
好吧，這是他的帽子，所以… Okay, well, it's his hat, so...
你最好小心點。 You better be careful.
那是把上膛的槍。 That's a loaded gun.
你的槍上了膛? You keep your gun loaded?
你的手機一直是充電的? You keep your phone charged?
-你怎麼來的?-梅森載我來的 - How'd you even get here? - Mason drove me.
梅森到底是誰? Who in the fuck is Mason?
梅森是你的兄弟。 Mason's your fucking brother.
我會保護你的。 I'd watch your back.
你在這裡沒有朋友。 You don't have friends here.
看看是誰。 Look who it is.
——我的朋友。-看看你，兄弟 - My friend. - Look at you, bud.
你過得如何? How you doing?
播客怎麼樣了? How's that podcast coming?
我昨晚發的。 I sent it in last night.
你還在這裡嗎? You're still here?
還在這裡。 Still here.
德州有影響力，不是嗎? Texas has a pull, doesn't it?
有點讓人心煩。 Kinda gets under your skin.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
你為什麼不把那玩意打開? Why don't you turn that thing on?
給你講個故事。 Got a story for you.
夥計們。 Fellas.
1875年，美國通過了第一部毒品法。 First drug law in the United States passed in 1875.
中國鐵路工人帶來了鴉片。 The Chinese rail workers - brought in the opium den. - Mm.
這個國家是如此的反移民，他們禁止鴉片館。 And this country was so anti-immigrant that they banned the opium den.
-不是鴉片。——嗯。 - Not the opium. - Hmm.
對吧? Right?
你聽過比這更美國的嗎? You ever hear anything more American than that?
我的意思是，現在鴉片在整個中心地帶爆發，所有的儀式，威嚴，魅力和樂趣都消失了。 I mean, now we got an opium epidemic breaking out across the heartland with all the ceremony, majesty, glamour and fun's removed.
而這正是人們渴望的。 And-and that's what people yearn for.
明白我的意思了嗎? You see what I'm saying?
你覺得加裡·韋伯今天能獲得普利策獎嗎? Do you think Gary Webb would've won a Pulitzer today?
我覺得你留在這裡很明智。 You know, I think you were smart for staying here.
——是嗎?-是的。 - Yeah? - Yeah.
關於艾柏林的故事，很好。 That story about Abilene, it's nice.
我覺得你注定要講述一個更大的故事。 I think you were meant to tell a bigger story.
問問你自己，今天這個國家的哪個部分是為了某些人的利益而保持崩潰、士氣低落、依賴和分裂? Ask yourself, what part of the country today is it in certain people's interest to keep devastated, demoralized, dependent and divided?
阿片類藥物危機，國家分裂，公民騷亂。 You got the opioid crisis, nation in divide, civic unrest.
為什麼這些事情會同時發生? Why are all these things happening at the same time?
你覺得這到底是怎麼回事? What do you really think is going on here?
跟你說了我有個故事要告訴你。 Told you I had a story for you.
你是什麼意思? So what are you saying?
這些都有聯繫嗎? That it all connects?
陰謀論是真的? That the conspiracy theories are true?
我想說的是，人們能感知到真相，但他們只是抓住了事實。 What I'm saying is people can sense the truth, but they're grasping for the facts.
看，神話就是沒有事實的真相。 See, a myth is just a truth without facts.
這就是為什麼它是抽像的，粗糙的，錯誤的。 That's why it comes out all abstract, gnarled, wrong.
容易被忽視和嘲笑。 Easy to dismiss and ridicule.
沒有人會聽他們的，因為他們不瞭解事實。 Nobody listens to them because they don't have the facts.
但我確實是這樣想的。 But I do.
而你,本…是的。 And you, Ben... Yeah.
整個該死的世界都會聽你的。 The whole damn world will listen to you.
他們要去哪裡? Where are they going?
。頒獎典禮後 Afterparty.
的。頒獎典禮後 The Afterparty.
跟我說說。 Tell me about that.
我是說，每天都有人吸毒過量一百次，本。 I mean, people overdose a hundred times a day, Ben.
這是一個事實。 That's a fact.
但他們不能在一個會給你我這樣的人帶來麻煩的地方做? But they can't do it in a place where it's gonna be a problem for people like you and I. Hmm?
這就是發生在艾柏林身上的事。 That's what happened to Abilene.
阿比林? Abilene?
我是說，她是在這樣的派對上死的。 I mean, she died at a party like this.
我以為你寫完了那個故事。 I thought you finished that story.
哦。 Oh.
這是為我們準備的。 This is just for us.
反正也不是什麼好故事。 Well, it's not a very good story anyway.
哦，她是個癮君子。 Oh, she was a drug addict.
她吸毒過量。 She OD'd.
然後她試圖撥打911。 Then she tried to call 911.
哦。在德州，我們不打911。 Oh. In Texas, we don't call 911.
是的，我聽說過。 Yeah, I've heard that.
他們會記錄所有的通話。 They record all those calls.
我們得小心被錄下來的東西。 We gotta be very careful about what gets recorded.
是的。你做的事情。 Yeah. You do.
這是我們唯一剩下的東西。 It's all that's left of us.
錄音。 The recordings.
像你我這樣的人，艾比林，每個人都把自己一天中的每一件事拍下來，我們用自己的整個生活來交換那些被記錄下來的小片段。 And people like you and I, Abilene, everybody posting photos of every part of their day, we trade in our entire lives for the tiny pieces that get recorded of us.
艾比林試圖撥打911。 Abilene tried to call 911.
你沒讓她這麼做。然後呢? You didn't let her. Then what?
哦，天啊 Oh, boy.
不要分心。 Don't get distracted.
你得承認，那可真夠讓人分心的。 You gotta admit, that's a hell of a distraction.
這是……這有點像分心的定義。 That is... That's kind of like the very definition of distraction.
——阿比林。-♪阿比林。♪ - Abilene. - ♪ Abilene. ♪
艾柏林怎麼了? What happened to Abilene?
你相信有鬼嗎，本? Do you believe in ghosts, Ben?
我之前接到一個鬼魂的電話。 I got a call from a ghost earlier.
我還以為今天能見到你呢。 Kind of thought I'd be seeing you today.
她怎麼了? What happened to her?
你為什麼這麼在意? Why do you care so much?
你為什麼這麼不在乎? Why do you care so little?
她吸毒過量 She overdosed.
你不但沒幫她，還把她拖去了事後派對，那是一個沒有手機信號的地方，就在四個重疊的司法管轄區的交匯處，你知道她的死只會變成一個匿名的數據。 Instead of helping her, you dragged her to the Afterparty, which is a spot with no cell reception at the exact intersection of four overlapping law jurisdictions where you knew her death would just become an anonymous statistic.
嗯。 Hmm.
說得好。 It's well said.
非常簡潔。 Very succinct.
是的。事實就是這樣。 Yes. That's exactly what happened.
太棒了 Brilliant.
你明白了。 You got it.
你得到了一切。 You got it all.
這是一個關於美國的故事。 That's a story about America.
如果你需要我重錄什麼就告訴我。 Let me know if you need me to rerecord anything.
或者，換個說法。 Or, like, rephrase things.
我也可以這樣做。 I can do that, too.
什麼? What?
哦,來……你和我要坐下來討論這件事。我希望它很棒。 Oh, come... You and I are gonna be sitting on a panel talking about this. I want it to be great.
我們都知道這是怎麼回事。對吧? We both know how this works. Right?
是啊，我是說，一開始，大家都以為你抓到了壞人。 Yeah, I-I mean, at first, everyone's gonna think you got your bad guy.
沒人會讓事情這麼簡單的。 Nobody's gonna let it be that simple.
每個人都有自己的想法，因為現在就是這樣。 Everyone's gonna have to have their take 'cause that's how it works now.
每個人都有自己的看法。 Everyone has a take.
看，如果你沒有鏡頭，你就沒有聲音。 See, if you don't have a take, you don't have a voice.
如果你沒有聲音，你就不存在。 If you don't have a voice, you don't exist.
所以沒錯，一開始，所有人都會怪我。 So yeah, at first, everyone's gonna blame me.
但有人會說"等一下" But then someone's gonna say, "Wait a second."
讓人死和殺了人是有很大區別的。 There's a big difference between leaving somebody to die and killing somebody.
然後他們就會轉向你。 Then they're gonna turn to you.
你一開始來這裡做什麼? What were you doing here in the first place?
你和她是什麼關係? What was your relationship with her?
你為什麼要利用她悲傷的家人? Why would you exploit her grieving family?
那些……這些字符。 Those... Those characters.
我的意思是……我是說，他們會變成那樣的。 I mean... I mean, that's what they're gonna be.
著名的人物。 Famous characters.
不是名人。 Not famous people.
然後他們就會把責任推到家人身上。 And then they're gonna blame the family.
我希望他們準備好了。 Oh, I hope they're ready for that.
他們會責怪總統。 They'll blame the president.
最後一個總統。 The last president.
然後他們就會開始說陰謀論。 And then they'll start in with the conspiracy theories.
有人會反駁陰謀論，然後其中一方會把他們的說法當做他們的目標。 You know, and someone will refute the conspiracy theories, and then one side will make their version like their cause.
而另一邊也會站在另一邊就為了站在另一邊。 And the other side will take the other side just to take the other side and on, and on.
直到你的故事證明了我們這個時代的決定性真相。 Until your story proves the defining truth of our time.
這是什麼? Which is what?
一切意味著一切。 Everything means everything.
所以沒有任何意義。 So nothing means anything.
有些事情是有意義的。 Some things mean something.
是嗎? Yeah?
像什麼? Like what?
阿比林? Abilene?
你根本不關心她。 You didn't care about her.
你是為自己而來。 You came here for yourself.
記錄。 For recording.
然後你聽到了她的音樂。 And then you heard her music.
你也看到她的照片了。 And you saw her photos.
她的記錄。 The record of her.
這就是你所關心的。 And that's what you care for.
一個記錄。 A recording.
不是一個人。 Not a person.
我們都是……只是對我們自己記錄的靈感。 We are all... just inspirations for the record of ourselves.
你我都知道。 You and I both know it.
你有你的作品。 You got your opus.
這才是最重要的。 And that's what matters.
但阿比林? But Abilene?
這個人嗎? The person?
來吧。 Come on.
她只是個普通的女孩。 She was just some girl.
這是事實，本。 That's the truth, Ben.
百分百。 Hundred percent.
♬開快♬ ♪ Drive fast ♪
♬我現在幾乎能嘗到它的味道了 ♪ I can almost taste it now ♪
洛杉磯♪♪ ♪ L.A. ♪
♬我現在甚至不用再假裝了 ♪ I don't even have to fake it now ♪
♬你好像病了 ♪ You were like so sick ♪
♬每個人都這麼說 ♪ Everybody said it ♪
♬你走在潮流前面了，快走♬ ♪ You were way ahead of the trend, ge-get it ♪
♬「貓王是最棒的，沒錯」 ♪ "Elvis is the best, hell yes" ♪
♬"親愛的，穿上派對禮服"♬ ♪ "Honey, put on that party dress" ♪
♬就像哦，哦，哦，哦，哦 ♪ Like ooh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
♬哦，哦，哦，哦，啊♬ ♪ Ooh, ooh, oh, oh, ah ♪
♪你讓我瘋狂♪ ♪ You make me crazy ♪
♪你讓我瘋狂 ♪ You make me wild ♪
♪就像個嬰兒一樣，讓我像個孩子一樣旋轉 ♪ Just like a baby, spin me round like a child ♪
♬你的皮膚這麼♬ ♪ Your skin so ♪
♬金色♬ ♪ Golden brown ♪
♬要年輕♬ ♪ Be young ♪
♪要瀟灑，要驕傲 ♪ Be dope, be proud ♪
♬像個美國人 ♪ Like an American ♪
♪哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦 ♪ Ooh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
♬像個美國人 ♪ Like an American ♪
♪哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦，哦 ♪ Ooh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
♬每個人都想走得快 ♪ Everybody wants to go fast ♪
但是他們不能和♬相比 ♪ But they can't compare ♪
♬我真的不想要剩下的♬ ♪ I don't really want the rest ♪
♬只有你能送我到那裡 ♪ Only you can take me there ♪
♬我都不知道我在說什麼♬ ♪ I don't even know what I'm saying ♪
♪但是我在為你祈禱…♪ ♪ But I'm praying for you... ♪
我們收到一份疑似吸毒過量的報告。 We got a report of a possible overdose.
4940年。頒獎典禮後 4940, Afterparty.
救護車的途中。 Ambulance en route.
週六晚上的911 ? A 911 on a Saturday night?
廢話。 Bullshit.
人。 People.
有一個報告。 Got a report.
昆汀·塞勒斯頭部中槍。 Quentin Sellers shot in the head.
Q?
我從沒想過他會出事故。 I never thought of that guy as accident-prone.
♬讓我們今晚盡情狂歡吧，在門口檢查你的心扉 ♪ Let's get wild tonight, check your heart at the door ♪
♬今晚不應該這樣 ♪ That ain't what tonight is for ♪
♬這是一段古老的時光，美好的時光……♪ ♪ It's an old times, good times... ♪
當我收到信號♬我要給你發這條短信 ♪ Gonna send you this text when I get signal ♪
♬我只知道該怎麼說……♪ ♪ I'll know just the words to say when I do... ♪
我聽說你們和好了。 I heard that y'all made up.
是的。 Yeah.
我知道昨晚的派對很精彩。 And I understand that was quite a party last night.
我不在那裡。 I wasn't there.
沒錯，你不是。 That's right, you weren't.
但是…我聽說那是個很不錯的派對。 But... I heard it was a pretty good party.
我已經……非常喜歡待在你家裡。 I've... very much enjoyed being in your home.
你需要搭車。 You're gonna need a ride.
這是真的。 That's true.
我的車…你回來後有什麼計劃? My car is, uh... What are your plans when you get back?
看來我得找個新故事了。 Guess I have to find a new story.
畢竟呢? After all that?
那艾比的事呢? What about all that stuff with Abby?
我覺得這個故事只適合我們。 I think that story's just for us.
哦。 Oh.
那也很好。 That's nice, too.
沒有遺憾。 No regrets.
我一直不明白。 I never understood that.
沒有遺憾。 No regrets.
我是說，你怎麼…在我的生命中，一切都以遺憾開始，以遺憾結束。 I mean, how do you... In my life, everything starts with a regret, ends with a regret.
在這之間,是遺憾。 In between, regrets.
都是遺憾。 It's all regrets.
你盡可能快地從最後的遺憾中解脫出來，當然，你只是直接奔向下一個遺憾。 You run as fast as you can from the last regret and, of course, you're just running straight into the next one.
這就是生活。 That's life.
都是遺憾。 It's all regrets.
這才是他們應該說的。 That's what they should say.
別無他法活著。 No other way to be alive.
都是遺憾。 It's all regrets.
好好珍惜 Make 'em count.